Dealing with a STUPID guy.

So, you all must know how in the previous entry I talked about Eric basically standing me up today. And I complain about it a lot, so this isn’t a rare occasion. Well anyway, I was online and Eric came honking by.. at a little past midnight. Which caused my dog to bark.. so I went out there, looking all bitchy.. he was acting all like his normal self .. what really pissed me off is that I asked him Hey, were you busy today?” and he said “Nah.Not really.” So then I really laid into him, saying a bunch of shit I cant really remember. It basically gets on my nerves because he does shit like this basically every day. He had the nerve to say that I didnt care about his feelings? Fxck that. He has me waiting around all the time for him to come by, and IM being inconsiderate? And Im not going to just cave because he acts hurt. My job is to make myself happy first and foremost, especially when hes not trying to make me happy. Screw it all. It just gets on my nerves. I learned that to get what you want, you have to care a great deal about yourself and not so much to please other people.

Something about me is that I can hold out for a long time, during an argument, or anything else. Sometimes I just have to be so damn arrogant, because its what it takes sometimes to be strong when people try to treat you bad. Its all part of the process, I guess. But Im especially not one to go back and apologize when someone hurts me. Rather than have apology on my mind, I just have myself focus on other things.. so if they dont come back, its not so hard and I basically just blow it off. Well, most of the time. Im waaaaaay to stubborn to give in to damn near anything that I set my mind to. I fear I can be very difficult at times. But hey, its a way to put people in their place, so to speak!

So, Ive gotten off the subject. Im talking about Eric here.. anyway, if he gets mad at me for saying stuff like that, and doesnt stop by to see me (him stopping by seems to be a rarity in itself) then I’ll be ok. I may feel wierd about it for a little while, but Id be better off. True, I may come off as a bitch, but oh well.

But now, Im online and I have noone to talk to. (I think as usual Marcus fell asleep) So I feel silly. Im starting to get a little sleepy.. so perhaps.. well, hell. I dont know. Ill do something constructive.