Im just happy to be alive

So, Im sitting here.. mom and Roger are at work so I finally have some time to myself, just to sit around and basically do whatever I want. Its nice. And after yesterday I guess I need some relaxing. Ya know, Ive been quite expensive to my mom lately.. first she had to spend all that money at the damn dentist on me, then yesterday i had to go to the hospital at 10pm because of mine and autumns car wreck, and since yesterday a tooth that had been worked on has been hurting, so I dunno if i knocked something loose in the crash, or what. But mom just told me to tell her if it still hurts tomorrow.

But hey, Im just happy to be alive! Ive never felt this way so much, thanks to the crash i realize how great it is to just be here.. its hard to explain. But theres also a bad side to that.. at times i feel bad because i think of how quick someone can die. Like yesterday, Autumn and I were fine on min and then the next we were basically in a tree. So its a lot of confusion. Im still here though, still able to type and talk and breathe, so what do I really have to complain about? Me and Autumn were especially lucky because we were able to walk away from it..It makes me feel especially lucky, because earlier this summer a guy from my grade was killed in a car crash.. so basically, i have nothing to complain about. Sure, Im a little sore, but I got it pretty good.

And now I feel like a dern fool because marcus said hed be online, but he isnt. Oh well.. what can I do about that? Nothing. Therefore, I cant worry. Just happy to be alive, like I said.

And ow.. before I had just had the chest and head pain, but now the only thing that has been added is I have some sore muscles.. but I guess that is to be expected. My mom drove Autumn and I by the place where we crashed yesterday, and there were tire marks on the road, swerving and stuff.. then at the tree there was a whole lotta bark knocked off, and pieces of the van all over the place. There hasnt been much time between it, so its wierd.

Eric stopped by today while autumn and i were sitting outside. That story is waaaaaay too long to explain right now. I just dont feel like typing it all out. But there is one thing Im gonna do for him: Im gonna help him fill out some paper work, or forms, whatever.. because his english isnt that well.

But like I said, no worries!

Im gonna go.. uhh.. hmm.. do something other than this. but I love you all! *kiss*