What’s wrong with me being happy? Pt.2

***Continued from previous entry***

Oh yeah, I guess it bugs her that Simon isnt completely nice to her all the time.. and thats because she has always treated him like crap, trying to outcast him, and why should Simon have to put up with that?Sure, hes really friendly and easy to get along with, but not if youre deliberately trying to single him out.I mean, I cant ask Simon to go through something like that, when he didnt do anything wrong and my friend is just being irrational.

Oh yeah, me and Simon pick on each other a lot, and if you’re not around us all the time you cant really catch on to the sense of humor we have with each other.. so when people like Autumn and Valerie just see bits and pieces of it, it might seem really wierd, or maybe mean sometimes. The only person who has been around us enough to understand what I mean is Renee.. We always joke around about shit. Me and Simon have these perfectly complimentary personalities, and the way we act around each other is perfect. I mean, we seemed to click right when we met, and since then we have gotten really close, and I have always been able to have a blast around him, because we have exactly the same sense of humor, so he knows exactly what to do to make me laugh, and he always knows the right things to say, and the right things to do, just because our personalities are that much alike.. I mean, we get along so well, and Ive never developed such a bond with anyone before, knowing that the second I met him I wasnt scared to be myself at all, and that he understands my personality and sense of humor so well and there is always a part of his personality that fits mine perfectly.. I mean, at least Renee seems to understand the kind of bond we’ve developed, because shes seen it first hand and says shes never seen anything like it with anybody before.. But at least she seems perfectly happy just knowing that I am happy. Why cant everyone else be this way? I really am happy, but it seems like most people dont care..

Oh yeah.. probably because me and Simon pick on each other so much, Autumn got the idea somewhere that he treats me like shit. I dont see where she gets that, probably from the fact that she is hardly ever around us.. but Simon treats me perfectly..I mean, he is so wonderful with everything.. Hes so loving, and affectionate, and is always worrying about me, even if I tell him I have a stomach ache, he will always try to do any and everything to make me feel better, constantly trying to cheer me up if he senses that Im not happy.. and always looking out for me,and making me feel like I am the center of the universe.. he is just so compassionate and loving, and once again I think Renee is the only one who has seen this..But I have connected with this guy so quickly,and all of the time and effort he has put into making me happy without my asking really shows a lot.. So I dont know where anyone would ever get the idea that he treats me anything less of perfect..

The main thing Im worried about is that Simon will pick up on the negative feelings.. I dont know how he does it, but he can always tell when theres ANYTHING wrong, even when my damn toe hurts. So I just dont want it to make me act sad toward him, because of all the shit from other people, because he really doesnt deserve it. Hes been nothing but wonderful and Im not gonna let all this stuff that Im feeling interfere with me and him.. sorry folks, but its not bringing me down.. So now I will bend over so you can kiss my ass.Nice ending to my entry, huh?

Well, I am going now. Cyaz.