Friday the 13th ((feelin sorry for myself))

*Sigh* What a sucky day. I been thinking a lot lately, and I realize how stupid and immature I am. I mean, I feel like when I talk, noone pays attention to me, and they don’t take my comments seriously. Sometimes I think that I’m in a room by myself talking to the walls.It might be because Im the youngest person in the group that everyone hangs out with.. but that doesn’t matter. I was sitting there last night and I realized how when I said something my words would get messed up, and everyone would get mad or something, so I realized that maybe it was best that I didn’t talk at all. Of course, everyone was asleep by then so it didn’t really matter, so I just sat there until I eventually fell asleep also. And it’s not like I cant talk about this, but I find it hard to tell my problems to people , face to face, especially when I feel like I am whining or feeling sorry for myself. I just hate the way I act sometimes. I can be so immature, when Im not an immature person. I know its ok to be immature sometimes, but I guess I just get stupid.I also realize how lonely I am! I hang out with people, so I’m not lonely in that sense.. I just feel lonely because I haven’t connected with anyone, and I feel like there’s an empty void somewhere.. but I don’t think I can find it. *sigh* I just hate feeling like I’m not important, and that my opinion means no more than jack squat. What’s the most frustrating is when I talk and noone listens. I don’t think anybody actually wants to HEAR what I have to say.. because I’m so young? Hell, because I’m a girl? Because my brothers just happen to be my brothers? I don’t know.It makes me mad when I am made to feel bad.Everything I say seems to be messed up, or wrong, or just thought of as someone having meaningless words coming out of their mouth. I hate feeling ignored, stupid and immature, but I guess this is how I’m made to feel.So I’m going to start being wise.. and changing myself and not talking and not doing anything to see if maybe people will notice me then. The End~!~