Today

I guess some things happened today. Chewwie’s kittens are starting to open their eyes, even though theyre not very old. I think it’s because Chewwie is always putting her paw on their faces, or something. I dont know why she does it.. She has wierd love.

Well, Brent called me today. I also talked to him online. I really do love him.. I think I should be with him. I mean, sometimes you just have to go through tough times. Like I have said before, he really does make me happy. He’s the one guy who thinks its cool when i burp and fart.. I mean, when you find a guy like that you should hold on to him! =p Some things jsut aren’t worth giving up! I’ll be going to Georgia soon.. and maybe we’ll get back together before then.. I love him way too much to risk losing him.. I can’t stand for us to be seperated for that long.. and I am 150% positive that he feels the same way. Oh well..

I also learned that Toke wants him and Renee to just be friends! I understand what he’s saying because it’s true that being friends relieves stress.. me and Brent tried it before. But then again, I know when they see each other his friendly feelings will be more than friendly! I just wanted to be friends with Brent awhile ago, but when I saw him I realized how much I loved him, and I didnt just want to be friends.. its different when youre actually with the person.. thats what I think Toke will figure out! I felt really bad for Renee tho, because I know how much she loves him but at least he will be here tomorrow! Im kindof scared to meet him. Anyway, its Toke and Renee time, so I will not barge in!

I guess I shall talk about myself.. today I didnt really do much.. I walked thru a sprinkler, and I tried to look for some hot guys (there aren’t many around here). Im supposed to be going to Georgia on Saturday.. I’m hoping I can meet up with my first love, and see how he’s doing and everything. There’s people I havent seen in a couple years that I want to see.

…Why are relationships so complicated? Sometimes its hard to figure out the right thing to do.. It has to be right for me and brent to be together. You probably think Im crazy unless you realize how much I love him. Besides, all the things that hes put me through, Ive put him through about 10 times more shit. And he stuck with me. Its amazing! He keeps telling me he loves me.. and of course I have to say it back, because i love him with all my heart.. I realize it.. Im just scared of being hurt! I told him if he hurt me again I would rip off his balls, put them in a blender and feed them to him. (I really did say this, but I would never rip off his balls). He knows i love him, i know he loves me.. i want to be with him and maybe i should go with what I want? Hm.. well, I guess I should decide sometime soon! *sigh*