why do i feel so depressed?

Tommorrow will be 13 months for robert and i. I love him so much. But everytime i am with him and i start to think about plans and how things take money i just feel all broken apart inside. He and i went grociery shopping and they had a great deal on shrimp…(i love shrimp)…Well it turned out that i had made a math error and that i had thirty dollars less than i thought so i got depressed put back the loaves of bread and the shrimp and got just the juice and the cheese. I felt so torn up by the fact that i couldn’t even get a few things to help feed me and my brother and father. It wasn’t even that big of a deal but it made me feel like shit. Oh well maybe tonight i will go out side and scream and then cry and then go to sleep and just get over it. Sorry no pretty writing today. Perhaps tomorrow i will be up to writing something good.

It’s always pretty as long as it’s honest. That’s what diaries are for. money is evil. I’ve always thought I would go join the air force if I run out of money.

i love you i don’t want you to feel bad

and i loved the flowers

Honey I KNOW the feeling!! I do! Although it may not seem like a big deal, to you it is. And I often go into my car and just scream, then cry, then almost throw up, but then I feel better. You are so beautiful, I agree with Trinity, don’t feel bad.