So much pain with love.

I’m getting to the point where I just don’t what the heck is going on. I miss my baby so much, but I am starting to think he doesn’t want to talk to me anymore, and just give up. It has been over a week since last I heard from him saying how we will talk soon about what is going on.  Now in my book over a week is not soon, I don’t know many people who think that would be soon. I have talked to some friends, one of them told me this… Though this was before he noted me about talking to me soon.

Personally, and its only my opinion, it sounds like he has lost interest in you or wants to call things off but isn’t man enough to actually do it… not talking to someone online is just about understandable cos he could have been busy at the time… but just saying that in an e-mail is just shite… i’m sure he must have SOME time to quickly write something back in an e-mail to let you know…whats going on and why he never has time to talk.

Another friend ask me if I though maybe there was someone else, and he was trying to think of who he wants more and what not. I told him I don’t think that is it, I have thought of that myself, but if that is it, then all that he said to me was a lie. He told me how he loves me and wants to marry me, and how he doesn’t ever want to hurt me, because when I cry it breaks his heart, so if all this is true then how can there me someone else? Then again I guess there could be, and I am just not really seeing it or thinking it.

I really don’t know what it is, but I am starting to think more and more of it being either one of these two, or both of them. Though it would make since how it would be both of them, after all if you are in love with someone else you may not want to have anything to do with your old love. I have been there before in my life.  Not a fun thing, but it is life. I just thought he loved me enough to really want to be with me and marry me, just doesn’t seem like that anymore. All I know is, if he doesn’t say anything to me soon, I mean less then a week, then I am going to email him. Pretty much saying… How I can take a hit, that you don’t want to talk to me anymore and have anything to do with me, I can see that. You will talk to everyone else and laugh with them, but you can’t talk to me at all. you said you would talk to me soon, well it has been over a week (Depending on how long it really has been to what I put there) and still no word from you, so it’s safe to say you don’t want to talk to me anymore. I just wish you would have said this to me, unless of going about it like this, making me wondering, think , being hurt and worry my ass off trying to think of what is going on. I will always love you, that will never change, but I can’t do this anymore, I can’t have someone who doesn’t want anything to do with me, so I guess this is goodbye.

Something along those lines I will say to him soon if I don’t hear anything from him. I just wish he would tell me that he is ok and that we are ok, but looks like we aren’t and this hurts. Why do people have to say they love you so much but turn around and hurt you so bad? Well I think I talked enough about this on here..

I want to say that I am going to be updating my Guide so that everything is up on it. I kind of forgot that I didn’t put all my posts on my site for you guys, so I will be doing that some time in the next few days.  I am stil here if anyone needs me, I just need time away from answering so many questions, but I haven’t left you all totally, just so you know.

Hope everyone is having better luck then I am, and I don’t just mean with love, with everything in your lifes. Take care!

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