Heavy/Happy

I have a heavy weight on my heart. I am going to spend some time thinking about the things i love and the priorities in my life, perhaps that will lift some of the darkness.

I love good food and friends to share it with. Making meals with friends and loved ones gives me an immense amount of pleasure. Picking out the perfect recipe and sharing it with others makes me happy. I love baking and i love following recipies or finding and comparing recipies. I love getting to know a dish so well that i can make it well without a recipe.

I love independent film and live theater. I enjoy the arts. I have never seen a symphony or opera, but would love to. I would also really like to see Teatro Zinzani or something similar. I love to try anything new. I want to be a part of community theater. Theater people make me happy- i am a theater person at heart.

Seeing people happy to see one another makes me happy.

Seeing and interacting with smaller kiddos makes me incredibly happy. I love their tenuous grasp on reality and creativity. I feel blessed to still have a hold on that part of my self. I love looking small ones in their eyes and talking to them. Kids respond to me and i love it.

Something difficult has happened to me and i am still processing it. Its been days and days, but i was only able to start talking with my therapist on Monday. I want to bring it out, i need to talk, but i can’t right now.