don’t laugh, its not funny

I shouldn’t be at work, that is what I have decided.  The family and whatnot were right when they said that I needed another day off, unfortunately the bills don’t pay themselves.  And my boss has decided to be out today, so I have our seasonal help in and well, she annoys me.  It could just be me.  I don’t feel my normal self, I am not as easy to be around and I can’t let things slide off my back as easily but…no, maybe its not me.  She annoys the hell out of me!!!

And the clock mocks me, today of all days I have to be here for the resident potluck dinner we are having.  The fact that my boss knows how much pain I am in and what is going on with me and so easily decided to take off drives me absolutely crazy.  God I am bitching I hate to be like this, dependent upon others to get me to and from anywhere I go.  I am used to my independence, used to feeling normal the constant pain in my ribs and the worry that settles so perfectly at night when my mind stops turning keeps the turmoil going.