Alright, I’m bored

 I find it completely impossible to motivate myself to work on homework when the deadline isn’t tomorrow.  I know, this is bad.  Because all of my stuff is due two weeks from now, and it’s going to kick my ass.  Plus, I have entire groups depending on me.  Why are they depending on me?  Because I’m the freakin leader, that’s why.  

For the first time in my life, I was late to work because of daylight savings time (on Sunday).  It was genius.  I went to bed at a decent time, woke up at 8:30 (I thought) and just sorta hung out cleaning and ironing and taking my time.  I noticed that I had gotten a phone call from a coworker at 1:30 am, and that I had apparently answered it, but I couldn’t remember it at all, and was gonna call him back on my way to work, just to make sure it wasn’t something important.  Anyhow, I get out of the shower at 10:15 (my time) and my phone rings.  
me:  hey, i was just about to call you
him:  what?
me:  nevermind.  what’s up?
him:  are you coming to work?
me:  …yeah, why?
him:  sometime soon?
me:  sure, what’s up?
him:  didn’t we already have this conversation?
me:  uhhhhhh
him:  it’s daylight savings time today
me:  are you serious??

genius.  but work was good, everyone laughed at me, and we all had a fabulous day.  

oh, and friday night:  glen (we’ll just call him the bum’s mascot) was hanging out on a barstool and beckened me over.  so over i went.  he said:  i’ve got twooo quuestions for ya
me:  okaaay.
him:  where do you work?  and do you make 2 grand a week?
me:  no, and no.
him:  well see, the reason that i’m asking is because i manage these pudding wrestling matches down in houston…

ahahahahahaaa……and i died.  poor glen, i just repeated the story to everyone i knew and pointed and laughed my ass off at him.  interestingly enough, he doesn’t seem to mind people laughing at him.  it is quite possibly his goal in life.

i wish my goal in life was as instantly gratifiable as his.  but no.  everything i want, everything i am working towards, i have to wait for.  and its good that i have to work for it and all, but the truth is, in the meantime, i’m just stuck in limbo.  i’m working, i’m learning, but i’m not doing.  i’m not running my own business, loving my husband, raising my kids or saving up for a house of my own…i’m just hanging out, waiting for that time.  no, i’m not a loser, but i can’t help feeling a little like one.  having a long-term goal or purpose that you’re working for is tough shit to keep on top of.  same goes for my stupid case study that i was writing earlier.  it’s due in two weeks, and i’d honestly rather not fuck with it now, but i know if i don’t, then i’ll let people down, and i won’t make the grade, and i won’t graduate, so that i can work, so that i can save money, so that one day, i can work for myself.  

this is why i drink, folks.  it makes the nowhere times considerably more enjoyable.