worried

I’m really worried about Seth and what he is going through, but I also know theres nothing I can do to help him unless I want to get back together with him…and that’s really not a good idea.  I just feel so rotten though.  I’ve been doing alright…but I’ve got plenty of things to keep me occupied.  I’ve got work and school and the gym, plus I love to read and don’t mind watching movies by myself.  Personality-wise I am fine as a loner…but Seth isn’t like that.  He’s only got work really, and it’s Friday.  But hopefully he’ll go out with Logan this weekend and keep his mind off things.  I dunno.  I just feel rotten being okay when he’s hurting so much.  I wish it didn’t have to be like this…but then after being together so long its not easy to let go of that person…not only is it impossible not to miss them but its equally hard to stand by and watch them suffer.  Maybe thats why I’ve gone through this cycle so many times…I just can’t bear watching someone else be unhappy on account of me when I know I have the ability to change that.  I dunno…I really shouldn’t talk to him at all…but I can’t make myself do that either.  I gotta hit the shower.  Later.