Three. Again.

Fuck.

I feel so fucked up. I can’t stop sleeping. Being asleep feels so much better than being awake right now.

I am tracing this feeling back to coming back from wickerman.

my heart hurts. Sometimes literally.

two things happened: 

1) I pissed Jess off
2) Amber dissapeared…. again.

A week later…. Erin broke my trust in a big way.

I can’ t dig out of this myself.

I have come to terms as best I can with Erin’s actions and resulting attitude about it.
I have come to terms as best I can with Patches’ pattern of leaving without a goodbye.
I can’t seem to come to terms with how I left things with Jess. It just feels wrong.

I’m hoping maybe if I can reconcile things with her, I can get myself back together.

Also, everything happens in threes, they say.