Why? – Update

She knows how I feel, she admited as much yesterday when she told me. She agrees with me that we never got a fair chance last year. She said it’s going to be weird having me all the way across the country next week when I’m on vacation, and I don’t see why having a "friend" go all the way to Seattle for four or five days would be weird. I don’t know if I’m going to see her again before I leave, and I don’t know why that bothers me.

And now I don’t even know if we’ll still have our normal Thursday together time. I don’t have any idea when I’m going to see her at all. I’m not going to feel comfortable calling like I used to because I’ll never know if she’s with him or not and I don’t want to seem like I’m interfering.

This sucks.

She still wants to hang together when Amber comes to town though. She doesn’t want to lose me as a friend. I don’t know how I’m going to adjust. I’m not sure I can this time.

But I already miss her and it’s only been twelve hours since I’ve seen her last.

** Update **

Naturally. I just got an e-mail from Amber saying she’s going to be in town next week while I’m in Seattle. Just great. I don’t know if this is God or the Universe or Someone Else telling me not to go to Seattle or if I’m being told to get used to not being around the few friends I have. I hate this.