Should have stayed in bed

Today almost doesn’t justify an update. I went to my parent’s place to do laundry since I haven’t seen them in a month or so. My mom made me some breakfast, and then suddenly there was a ton of yard work and staining and cleaning to do, none of which would have been started had I not been there. So I did my laundry and left. It’d be different if they’d asked me to come up and help, but they were just waiting on me to show up eventually and expected me to just do it. Too bad. I’m past the point of being made to feel bad for things like that.

For the past thirty plus years I’ve been the dutiful and traditional oldest son, oldest grandson, etc. and it’s gotten me exactly nowhere in life. I’ve attended family gatherings at the cost of missing friend things, and I’ve been made to feel badly because I missed some when I lived eight hundred miles away and only had two days off for the holiday. Of course now that I’m only two hundred miles away and my parents occasionally host the holidays, no one comes because “it’s just too far”. Whatever. All I can say is they’d better all be at my wedding or that’ll be the end of it, even if I get married in Alaska. No immediate plans, mind you, but you get the point.

Ember and Sam are out of town still, and I’m kind of on the outs with Meg and Nay because I agreed with Ember on that whole situation. Besides, we were only casual friends anyway. I tried, but I just couldn’t seem to make it work. I think we’re all still going to AWA next weekend, but I haven’t had a chance to get with Ember and Sam about it. I guess we’re getting tickets at the door now instead of having them mailed. I’m going to have to arrange a place to meet everyone because I think I’ll be driving down from the project city instead of going home first. Home is a little out of the way from where I’ll be.

I kind of hope I get to see them tonight, but I probably won’t. God I’m pathetic…