All in my head

I have been having night terrors again

I didn’t have them while I was dating E, and now they are back (and yes, I am not dating him anymore)

My coworker Justin thinks that I was suppressing to impress…however, I think its deeper than that

They say that its something misfiring in my brain, and its definitely not something for a sleep clinic.  I called them once and they said, night terrors are not sleep related, talk to psychiatry

I am doing a lot of work with Michael, the numerologist at the store and he said when we talked at length on Saturday, that its bound to happen, all the stuff that I am working on and revealing, all the layers bring up stuff that need to be addressed

I am thankful that I have my Buddhism practice.  I know that the situation with E and how we stopped seeing one another would have totally untethered me if it weren’t for my meditation and my new perspective on things

It was the second night in a row last night that I woke up frantic and trying to figure out what the heck was wrong, why I couldn’t stay asleep.  I am probably going to be worthless in class tonight, however, I am so glad its starting again, because, man I so need that weekly ‘tune-up’

Maybe I need to talk with someone about what’s going on in my head, other than Michael…perhaps that might be the next layer I need to work through, who knows