Idle hands

Well so much for spending time online and writing and catching up with everyone!

I think its an interesting thing…that when I was working for Gemfire, I had all the time in the world to write and read other people’s diaries…and I was generally really unhappy with my job and how things were going for me.  And I could write for days!

Now that I have a job, that I love very much and I am busy being involved with the Dharma Center, I am happier, I really don’t feel like I need to put a lot of stuff on paper

Sure, I have had moments in my head where I think…I really need to write this down and yet I don’t

Here are some of those moments:

• Having dinner up in the city with Mar, and really enjoying ourselves, trying new food and celebrating the season
• Having a spa day, getting some well needed massages and trying not to laugh as we soaked in this hot tub
• Thinking that the Monday before NYE would be the perfect time to see an museum only to get up to the city and be told it was a 2 hour wait to get in!  The look on Mar’s face was hilarious
• Trying to figure out just what D’s problem is…I go from being his friend, to his assistant (which helped out tremendously when I didn’t have a job in November) to him wanting me to spend ‘time’ with him…really not sure about all of that with him…mixed signals BIG time
• Wondering why I was still attracting all the wrong kinds of men, the numerologist Michael and I had a long talk and we discovered that I needed to bring out the feminine side of me more and sure enough, all sorts of things came up about my mother’s role in my life and how I was impacted by her.  I have been tasked with asking for help more and being a little more vulnerable.  As you can imagine, its been an interesting month of ‘work’
• I met someone…and it wasn’t online, it was here at the hospital.  He makes me blush like a teenager, and he’s all I think about in the moments we aren’t together.  We go on break together and we sit in the sun (when there IS sun) and talk during the lunch hour.  He’s a contractor working construction somewhere in the hospital.  Its new, its amazing, and I really trying VERY hard not to put any spin on it…what’s going through my head now is "holy moly, we’re heading to being intimate together…will he still be as attracted to me naked as he is clearly attracted when I am wearing clothes?"
• Still haven’t really gotten into my work out routine…however, I AM bringing my lunch and having more healthy snacks…now that I am hurtling towards showing all my jiggly bits to someone, I might want to step that routine up a little!
• Job is going really, really well.
• I am now the Secretary of the Board of Directors for my Dharma Center.  It means a lot to me that I was asked to be a part of that.  I hope that I can bring some new awareness to the group and we can get more positive things going there
• Lekso is still throwing up, but not as much because we are giving him some really good food.  Sassy unfortunately is now incontinent and we are trying to figure out a way to get it treated.  We do a lot of laundry at my house

So that’s what’s going on in my life.  I am hoping to catch up with others and stay in contact here as much as I can