last nite ;

last nite i went outside w/a spoon and buried benj.  i couldn’t find a shovel.  plus it was really late and my mom had already gone to bed.  it was cold outside….i could see my breath.  i was crying so hard i was shaking.  i even had a dream about him.  except he was as big as a dog and i was playing fetch w/him.  when i woke up i was happy b/c it snowed but then my mom told me to go outside and bring all my lil cousins toys to the truck and then put a tarp over them.  that sucked.  i hope that my rat dory doesn’t get sick.  i hope she’s pregnant b/c then we would have baby rats.  but they would grow up without a father figure since benji died last nite.  my mom said if dory is pregnant then we’re getting rid of the babies…as in killing them.  i would kick her before i allowed that to happen. 

andrew asked me out last nite.  it was really weird.  but in a way it seemed right, even though we’ve gone out before and it didn’t work out.  i’m considering saying yes but i’m not sure b/c there’s someone else…and i’m not sure where he stands.

mikes bday dinner was gross.  we went to this australian restaurant called Billabong.  yucccckkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!  worst steak EVER!  the french fries were alright though.  i used all the A1 sauce.  whoops. 

today i think im gonna go see a movie w/andrew.  or maybe i’ll sleep all day…….

on wednesday i get to have my wisdom teeth pulled.  i think i’m going to end up biting someone…..

then on friday if i’m better i’m going to the less than jake concert w/someone else that i’m not sure where he stands.  someone whose stomach i licked and nipple i bit…..lol