ridin’ solo.

i got one month a bit ago.  I quit smoking 2 days ago (for real).

boy is still in my life.  I still love him.  Still want him. 

He’s in hawaii fucking some filipino boy.  or not.  I dunno.  I asked him to tell me if he fooled around with anyone when he gets back.  I don’t know what I’ll do if the answer is yes.  i won’t be happy.  no sir.

I need to get food stamps.  Food stamps will change my life.

now i go to a meeting, stressful.  No smoking is hard when smokers are everywhere.