This economy might take my parents house

     Normally, my mom is very good at getting jobs. She has ALOT of experience, and no degree. But she’s still forged her way forward, making great money for quite some time. (her last job really brought it bank..) But, because of her intense desire to get away from my brother (none of us can blame her) But, my stepdad was so unhappy at his job, he took the job offer in Louisiana. My mom gave up her great paying job to join, without a job lined up.
 
     Well, if you’ve been reading my diary, you’ll know the dramas with my brother. His stealing. His lying. His cheating. Oh, and him knocking up his girlfriend, of course. She’s just now turning 17 wed, i believe, or maybe tomorrow. He’ll be 18 in november. He’s really messed up his life, and he treats us all like crap. He thinks he’s above all of us, ironically. My sister and I have always made good grades; my sister got into soccer, and I got an acting scholarship. He is very dependent; he just got a job, finally, and complains about the minor woes in his life.

    ANYWAY, what with the situation with his girlfriend being pregnant, and my uncles complaining several times a day upon the phone on my brothers behavior (Bringing lots of random guys over, eating all of our food at times, destroying the house, talking on the phone at all hours, sneaking out with his buddies at all hours of the night/morning, talking back, and most of all, going through their rooms and stuff, in hopes of finding some thing to sell, I’d imagine…) She finally came back, sans job.

     Now, they are paying on two places, two seperate bills for rent/house payment, utilities, and groceries. Oh, and since they were making bank, they bought two new expensive cars (gas guzzlers, no less) They’re gonna have to sell them for something cheaper, and we may lose the house.

      This doesn’t exactly affect me in a sense; I’m moving to Joplin to finally begin my acting career, but this IS MY FAMILY. I cant ignore that. T heir problems are my problems, in a way. Though I’m planning a day trip to find an apartment, settle on whos my roomate (or maybe they wont mind an extra person…) And most importantly, finding a flexible job and hoping i make ends meat. I’m h oping i can take out a student loan to pay my rent, and I make a little more than before, so that I can cover all my bills. I know I wont be miss rich for awhile, but I’m going after my dream.

     I’ve lost six pounds! Super exciting! But I kinda vegged out yesterday, and had a bowl of frozen yogurt tonite (its chocolate brownie or whatever. Its the brand Edy’s) I feel kinda fat right now, but im planning on doing some sort of exercising tonite. Not sure what. I need to PUSH myself to wake up in the morning and not sleep in. Get up and do the workouts. At night is the worst time to do it, and its easier to push off. I always need to make d inner and whatnot.

    Most people are shocked that I dont weigh way less than I do. Its pretty crazy. I go up and down a lot, and thats due to my intense love for all things sugar, but im trying to break away from that. I’m becoming active again. I use to be an athlete.

     Fathers day was depressing. I HATE fathers day. Obviously, when you lack a father, who came in your life then zipped right back out, it would be depressing. Its weird, next fathers day, I’ll probably send my brother a gift. 

    My sister snuck in a bunny.  Her name is Lilly. She’s cute.

    I found out Jamie (the cute new guy I met) is going to Iraq. When, I dont know, possibly quite soon. Depressing. That FIGURES. Ugh, whatever. But if I’m not asked to wait, I wont. But I’m surprisingly patient in that arena.

    Anyway, life is hectic right now. I’m helping to buy food the best I can. I dont make bank working at a daycare, but I do my best. My mom had this nervous breakdown a few weeks ago, almost committing suicide, and she’s needed me more than ever. I’ve always been her right hand man, so to speak, and now i’m working in overdrive. I’ve always been like a secondary parent to my brother and sister, because my mom has always been depressed. (I still suffer, but its an everyday battle I’m getting better at)

    Well thats all, really. I mean, all worth talking about. On lighter notes, I’m getting in shape again, I’m hoping to be able to try out for Breaking Dawn (the Twilight Saga, as Tanya or Kate) and in the next Star Trek movie as Capt Kirks baby mama lol, and various other things. Supernatural would be freakin awesome.