Twilight obsession?

Okay, so I had heard all the hype around the movie and the books. I thought it would be ridiculous, and anything too popular usually drives me away, and fast. Things popular by US Standards, no offense, tends to not be that good. IMHO. But.. whatever. So, my friend Tenesha asks me to go and… so i do.

   Dear lord, I’m fifteen again. I LOVED it. Personally, Robert Pattison wouldn’t really  catch my fancy. (im into the likes of Jensen Ackles, mind you) And wow. He freakin SIZZLED in this. And I say this because its not your typical ooohh la la guy. He’s your myserious, deep, and complicated character that just yeah…. so after falling in love with it and Pattison’s performance (Kristen did alright in her role as Bella. Though I’d say she’s way over hyped, seeing how she speaks in such monotones and always seems to have a chip on her shoulder)

  I read the book, Twilight, the first in the series over the weekend. Yes, just a couple of days and that 500 some odd page book was completed. HUGE guilty pleasure. I even laughed aloud a few times, catching myself, quite surprised. Of course, Edward is just fabulous. In book and movie, Bella doesn’t much capture your attention to much, to be honest. But by comparison, her life is relatively boring compared to Edwards. So i can see the struggle.

   I’ve already spoiled myself, so i know how it ends. They’ve already finished the script to New Moon. I’m sure they’ll do all the books.

   Oh! So, I missed a few classes at school, and when i went back it was like catastrophic. I mean, i missed my exam in Western Civ, but i haven’t used my get out of jail free card, so i can make it up. Anyways, the 3 of us who need makeup exams went into the hall. Well, this guy comes walking past me in the hall, smiling at me, i smile back and im like ok. cute. but ok. Then i realize who he is.

  "Joey?" I asked, confused and praying I wasn’t embaressing myself.

  "Yes!" he exclaims. He stops, and I leap up and run over to him and throw myself at him in a rather large hug. He is not opposed to this, and when I let go he says, "Well, I’m glad you’re so happy to see me!"

   "What the hell happened to you?" I asked, with a tone of excitement.

   "I know, I know, I dropped off the face of the planet. But I had some stuff going on… Relationship stuff… ya know." I nodded and agreed. He didn’t need to proceed any further. I tried to make it a little more light hearted, as the past seemed to kinda have left this residue of hurt.

    "It’s really damn cold outside. But then again, I cant complain, you spent how long in Alaska?" He laughs.

    "I know, I know… it was waaaaay colder than here. It was ridiculously cold up there! Then again, I stayed a year longer than assigned because of, ya know… relationship [short pause] And friends… but stuff went down and I came back"

   He asked for my number and everything. I said it in a low, soft voice because the creepy guy in my class was out there, his headphones off. Can NEVER be too safe these days. I made sure he had the right number, i think, cuz last time… well, that was bad (i gave the wrong number to this guy Ryan who worked in the meat section of hy vee. i thought he had blown me off, and he always almost avoided me when i walked by. Ty later informed me i had give the wrong new cell number out. So all along, he thought I’d given a fake! Thats the last thing that poor guy needed!

    "I’m going to sooo rub it in Trisha and ADam’s face I got to talk to you today!" he laughed.

    "Okay," he smiled, "I’m going to give you a call, like…. really soon," he smiled even bigger, "We’ll get together and catch up on everything."

    "Oh, great!"

    "Well, I’m already late for class," he laughed. Course, I had to let him go. But it was awesome to see him again. I had told him this:

    "I thought I saw you a month ago, but I couldn’t be sure. This one time, around that time, this guy yelled "Jackie!" and came running at me like he was gonna hug me. He got close and realized his mistake and it was really, really, awkward" So i didn’t take the chance." He laughed but said its good we’re talking now and I DID realize who it was.

   Ugh. just on of  those things you worry about. Little stupid things.

    Oh. Drama. Lots of d rama my friends. Well, some. So my sister wont let loose this LOSER she’s been dating. We dont even know how old he really is. HE looks like a serial killer. HE lies. He manipulates and my grandparents absolutely deteste him. Well, we all do really.

   So Friday, just before i was suppose to go to Lauren’s with Liz we eru

pted into this text  fight. My grandma was sobbing over the whole ordreal and i couldn’t stand to see her cry. Anyways, she started throwing accusations my way, completely ludicrous, about me leaking secrets about her relationship with him. I mean, what the hell do i know about their relationship that no one else knows? When i confronted her and my mother over what "info" i leaked to grandma, neither could answer. They were trying to isolate me and put all the heat and blame on me

  Those two are so similar, its scary.

   I warned her not to bring him around me. Ever. Especially anytime soon. What does she do? That VERY night she brings his ugly butt over to work on a fish tank? Uhm what? So i went off. I dont make threats, or warnings and wimp out when im tested. But she pushed my buttons so hardcore. I was more ampted b/c my grandma was so upset (my sister had called her and upset her so badly, my grandma couldn’t walk. DEFENDING this LOSER against her own grandma. See, HUGE red flad)

    It became this big thing where I was crying. I rarely cry. I HATE the emotion. I just do. Quickly it turns to anger and resentment. We haven’t spoken since Friday. Why? On my part, its tough love. She’s got to be pushed. Its one of those volatile relationships that drag on thru the years. Since im the only family member who will stand up and proclaim what they thing and know cower in the shadows, i will be the bitch. Whatever.

    And the week before there was this party on my behalf that flamed out and went hostile. It was not fun times. Kari and I made up pretty quickly though. I ignored her texts a few days, but its how i operate. I get so worked up because im so passionate. I needed time to chill, think it through, and be rational and mature.

   Okay, well I think I wrapped that up in a little a way as I can. I mean, other stuff is going on like finals and the immense stress from those finals (btw, i dropped that stupid biology class. Great man, but stick to research biology, NOT teaching) I didnt go to that school audition. I’ve got so much to do here still its frustrating. I’d rather just take classes nearby and stuff. I was semi excited at the prospect, but I feel VERY behind. I need a LOT more training, quite frankly.