this is NOT what i needed right now

As if it wasn’t bad enough…… Michael has to go and get a girlfriend out of the blue and totally screw me over…. and pull his shit all over again. Maybe this time I’ll learn what a true jackass he is.

  I am trying so hard to study, but math is driving me insane. i feel like i want to do ANYTHING ELSE but math. I am tired of this. i am worn out. i hate math and i dont understand it and im never gonna need a majority of this stuff. i just cant belive they ask highschoolers these questions- ive been in college over 2 years and im like huh?

 but i go to maple, so go figure.

 im trying to be healthy, and my work decides to have a pizza weekend. super. the one food that pretty much no one can resist. Beautiful.

  I get Sunday off, so maybe I’ll be able to study then…. at some point!!!

 And i know the school to which im to take the test, but no idea where in the school to go…. little things get the best of me and stress me out.

  I get Halloween night off….. that should be interesting. I have no real plans as of yet. We’ll see how it goes i guess. i almost was gonna buy a halloween costume yesterday, but didn’t. It surprised me that i was  thiking about it. but since no one could cash my check, im not gonna have ANY money till Monday. I think its stupid how if you deposit your check on Saturday, it doesnt go thru till monday. oh well. whatever.

  I’m in a no care mood right now. i just dont give a shit. im worn out. and ive been worn out for as long as i can remember. i dont see that changing, but hopefully it’ll be tired in a good way. From time to time, my boss’s thank me for my good work, like yesterday, but i mean its so rarely that it doesnt seem like enough. I only want their apprasel cuz they seem to categorize me with the highschoolers. its not fair.

  Kathy has been chewing Kevin out lately, which is weird, cuz Kathy is SECOND in command, and Kevin is FIRST. She runs that store, its kinda funny…. poor Kevin. He needs a backbone is what he needs…

  I have 3 hours till i have to leave for work. Hopefully I’ll use it wisely….

  Oh, and update— My great Aunt Peggy who lives in the San Diego area, has not evacuated, which surprises me, bt she lives on the outskirts in a suburb like Gladstone is to Kansas City. I guess she’s okay. Mel hasn’t had to evacuate either, so that’s good. Mel says its calming down out there, but she still can smell the smoke. I ask that anyone who reads this says a prayer, or has a silent moment, whichever, for everyone out there…. makes me a little worried for the future but oh well!

 Linda at work has me a little concerned- I know its her way to deal…. but she made a joke about not being able to cashier or something b/c she has to babysit her dying sister. It’s upsetting. Linda is 47, I believe, and her sister is a little older (she’s got some younger sister’s too and an older brother) Her sister has terminal cancer, and its spread about her entire body. She’s going to die within the month. She wants to stay at work to keep herself busy. And when her sister passes, she’ll take time off. I’m very worried about her. Keep her in your prayers and thoughts to, to help keep her strong, and the whole family strong. Cancer is an evil thing I wish we could abolish.