Always loving

never being loved.

I love with everything in me, I give myself 110% to whomever I’m with, but I’ve yet to find the person that will give that much back.  It makes me wonder if I’m holding my standards too high.  Am I asking for too much?  Are my wants and needs ridiculous?  Is it too much to ask for a man that will love me with everything he has, for a man that will love my girls as his own, for a man who can share his emotions with me and not feel like less of a man for doing so?

I’m not meant to be alone.  I hate being alone.  I am so much better when I am with someone.  But what does that say about me?!  I should be able to be completely content on my own, be happy with my own surroundings and life and not need someone else to complete me.  I just don’t feel happy anymore.  I feel like I’m treading water, making the motions and doing what’s expected of me.

I want so much more out of life.  God I want someone to share my life with, someone that will truly appreciate the woman I am.