Conversation (+Log)

What I love,
Is a good conversation,
Especially with you.

Thus you have,
My deepest and heartfelt appreciation,
Everytime I get to talk to you.

Lightness and laughter,
Is the most wonderful sensation,
You set me to the best mood.

What I love most,
Is both our determinations,
To keep this friendship good.

The End
Sky Lark Crow
4.20am 14th May 2006

We are BOTH really trying to make things work between us and I really do feel great about that. Because I used to think that it was only me who was trying. I’m glad that I’m wrong.

My pal and I have great conversations on good days. Which is why I’m still hard pressed when I’m feeling bad about things between us, to consider walking away. But fortunately over the last month we’ve had more good conversation says, like today…. But today he let me talk more, he wasn’t saying much, I reckon coz the short time he was online and the number of posts he had on his blog, that he was busy with that and probably other stuff (he’s a master multi-tasker), while we were chatting. But it’s still nice to talk to him. We’re always teasing each other. Now mainly because he’s on medications, and he just gets that way on meds, so if I take it light as well, things just go well. Coz it’s no use getting mad at him, or being serious when he honestly doesn’t know what the heck he said by the next day, or when the effects of the meds wears off. So we’ve gotten into just a teasing play.

I also gotten into not saying hello to him first, in case he’s just online to get his work done, so I’ve told him that if he wants to chat with me, just BUZZ me on YM and we’d talk. What I do do though is change my status so that he knows I am online, if I see him get online while I’m on. Coz sometimes my status says I’m away and I forget to change it, so he thinks I’m away and may not say anything. WIth that system in place, now he initiates 9 our of 10 of our chats so it’s really nice, coz I know that he ain’t just tolerating me, he knows that if he don’t wanna talk, he can just not buzz and I’ll take it as him being too busy, that’s all. See, no stress and not too much expectations on both sides. 🙂

So here’s today’s log just for fun, coz it tells about other weird stuff that goes on in my house anyway. hahaha
Oh his spelling is normally excellent, but because he is on meds, his spelling’s gone so bad, I can mostly make an educated guess on what he’s saying most of the times depending on what we’re talking about, otherwise I just tell him "Okay, say that again in English."

Tbear: BUZZ!

Me: Hallo

Tbear: so hwos things

Me: dcide to have dinner in my rom coz Coshy wouldn’t let me eat in peace

Tbear: y nto

Me: He thinks he’s cute adn keeps trying to come on to me for the fun of it coz they are bored
Me: but I think they’ve gone now since the house ia quiet again

Tbear: they?

Me: Sissy’s friends

Tbear: oh so wat they doin there whn no one is there

Me: *shrugh* drinking beer. making a mess

Tbear: with permission

Me: somthing was really wrong with me today
Me: I woke up at 4pm!!

Tbear: tats cuz ui neverslept

Me: well, I dont care if they drink beer
Me: Sissy came down and said
Me: "Lanis! They made a mess!"
Me: and I said "Yeah but I ain’t cleaning it up!"
Me: I went to sleep at 8am

Tbear: ahh
Tbear: so watd she do?

Me: ran upstairs coz she was wearing those singlet kinda tops and the guys were razzing her about being able to see her boobies

Tbear: hmmm

Me: yah
Me: then while Coshy was trying to bother me having dinner

Tbear: id have caught em by their dicks n sqeueezed em ballsn thrown em out after i made em clean da house

Me: his friend said something aout Newton renting a maxi car to take them somewhere
Me: and Coshy was like "Lanis, are you coming with us?"
Me: and I said no coz I wanted to go back to my room
Me: and he said "Can I come?"
Me: and I said "You can come in your hands…"
Me: and he gawked and told everyone I said that
Me: then he came back to me later and said "You said I could come in my hands… you’d like that wouldn’t you?"
Me: I gave up and said bye to all of them and brought my dinner up to eat
Me: Coshy in his moods just won’t leave me alone

Tbear: y r u being botherb by babbies

Me: they are Sissy’s and Carla’s friends
Me: Newton I don’t mind, we just say hi and bye all the time

Tbear: ya so starnd up fore ure self

Me: I did
Me: I pushed him off the chair

Tbear: nahw

Me: I don’t mind Coshy sometimes
Me: actually that’s just today
Me: normally he’s a clown but not until I get annoyed

Tbear: id heve said nawh… ud like it cuz its ure hands n later u could eat it if u wanted

Me: nah I told him that the other guy wanted him and they should go sit on each other
Me: I called him a good lil boy and one of the guys was like "She called him a lil boy!"
Me: then Coshy was like, "You wanna go out with me?" and I said, "Naw you’re too young"
Me: and this other guy who tried to get into Coshy’s teasing thingy and had been sitting beside me for the last 5mins or so was like, "how old are you>"
Me: and I said "27"

Tbear: ure not 27

Me: and he was like "Fuck, she’s old enough to be my mother!" but at least it got him off the seat
Me: Im 27 in October
Me: when I said 27 he was like "You fucking me?"
Me: and I said "No, Im 27 in October"

Tbear: so u should have told him to quit clowning with someone old enough to be him mum
Tbear: hahahahahaha

Me: oh
Me: that was someone else who said that
Me: Coshy already knows my age, he flirts anyhow
Me: when I was cooking he came and hugged me and all
Me: hahahaha
Me: &quo

t;There she is! My Lanis!"
Me: but he does give a decent shoulder massage
Me: his real name is James… James Coshy
Me: how was your day?

Tbear: other dan haveing a hardon is ok

Me: you always have a hardon
Me: having learnt to live with it by now?
Me: *pats your head* poor thang

Tbear: 😛

Me: 😛 yourself

Tbear: u come do it

Me: what? help you lick yourself?
Me: send me a ticket and I will
Me: you should be glad Coshy annoyed me otherwise I’d still be downstairs
Me: Im still hungry

Tbear: thn go et

Me: wanted me to feed him my food
Me: I just had one bowl

Tbear: hahaha

Me: I have some more left I put ina lil container

Tbear: u shold hve told him tat u dun do tat even for any guy
Tbear: but ud only do tat for a gal
Tbear: hahah
Tbear: he’d heave shit in his pants
Tbear: hahaha

Me: hmmmm
Me: yeah I thought about that
Me: he’s harmless, I just was too hungry
Me: I think he’s just 18 anyway
Me: they all turn 18this year
Me: my aunty asked me why I didn’t go for younger guys…. these kids remind me everyday!
Me: so who’s eyes are those anyway?

Tbear: huh

Me: your YM pic

Tbear: oh beliveongs 2 a chick

Me: which chick?

Tbear: hell if i knw

Me: hahahahaha

Tbear: did this when iwas in college

Me: its cool though
Me: so how things going outstation?
Me: told you I aint going to Bris right?

Tbear: dont knw

Me: dont know how its going?
Me: I think I’ll go Bris next weekend instead maybe
Me: Shad didnt sms me anyway so I may not have met him even if I went this weekend
Me: :~(

Tbear: y cry

Me: kidding
Me: I wouldn’t cry

Tbear: if u say so

Me: I have Coshy nyway!
Me: hahahahah
Me: geez

Tbear: hahahahahaha

Me: I wouldn’t cry over someone I just met
Me: you can’t be crying if you have a Coshy around
Me: I should get his picture for my album of weird people
Me: he’s a fun lil boy

Tbear: hahahahaha
Tbear: u should have tat asda capopt

Me: huh?
Me: I think Coshy is the only one who can handle me being crude from time to time

Tbear: us hould hve that as the caption

Me: the others go silent in fear of what I’d suddenly say next coz they never expection anything like that from me
Me:  oh ok I’ll do that
Me: very amusing lot of kids
Me: thats why I lock myself up in the room when we have visitors
Me: they tried to get into my room just now through Jodie’s room
Me: but I know they do that so I locked both doors

Tbear: hahahaha

Me:  yeah, my rooms the only one none of em has been able to mess up coz I always lock it when they are around
Me: some of Sissy’s friends are mad

Tbear: yup i can tell
Tbear: i thinktat i;’lld lookature upcis b4 i gobath

Me: you not coming back after that right?
Me: too bad I cant join ya
Me: I already had a shower anyhow

Tbear: tease

Me: well showers are more fun than baths
Me: OH… Pedigrees new tag line for….
Me: "You give me a bath, I give you a shower… IT’S ONLY NATURAL!"
Me: the pic is of a doggy shaking itself and the water spraying all over
Me: real cute
Me: so You give me a good lick and I’ll give you a shower… that’s only natural too!

Tbear: y u love makin me horny eh
Tbear: 😛
Tbear: u big tease

Me: no I was just telling you about the tag line
Me: anyway you love being teased
Me:  and you had a hardon before you got online so it ain’t my fault

Tbear: rather have u boinking me right now

Me: *boink*
Me: done

Tbear: cock tease

Me: HAHAHAHAHAH
Me: no I boinked your head with my hand!
Me: the head that ppl see everyday

Tbear: uwait till i get there

Me: at the rate you’re going I’ll be done with my masters by the time you get here
Me: *licky* hmmm yea you should go bath

Tbear: wanna cum all over u

Me: you’ll have to come over first
Me: I already said you could
Me: but you ain’t here
Me: I should take that as a sign

Tbear: hu

Me: HAHAHAHAH
Me: ok if you can blow all the way from India to Australia… that’s fine too

Tbear: huh

Me: meaning, if you are gonna comein the next half hour and if your cum reaches me and goes all over my body, that’s fine too… I’ll just go have another shower

Tbear: cock teaze

Me: I didn’t touch your cock!
Me: I swear!
Me: I’ve been no where near India in more than a year
Me: your secretary is closer, maybe she’s the one who teased

Tbear: hey i got to get goin ok

Me: sure thing
Me: have a nice day
Me: you dunno if you’re coming back right?

Tbear: nope

(Then he signs off… Coz he already said bye so it’s cool. Now a days he makes it a point to tell me if he is going, if we are in conversation because he knows

I get upset if he goes and doesn’t come back. See, we’re making progress! hehehe)

Sometimes he’ll ask me to turn on my webcam then he’ll say  "There you are! Hallo… Now give me a big smile!" hehehe 🙂 I can’t help but smile then.

Oh, we also had a deal that we stop the teasing that gets all sexual in nature if I start dating anyone here. Not that I’m looking to date, but I’ve been keeping my options open anyhow. Even he keeps reminding me about that deal we made anyhow… *grins* So that’s the bit of amusement for the day for you…

Take care and God be with you always!

Sincerely,
Smiling Coz There’s No Reason To Frown