We are all Elementals

We are all elementals,
Of light and darkness….
At least I know I am….

Within me there’s always been,
A raging war between these forces,
The light, the darkness,
And everything in-between.

I need both perhaps,
The light to sustain me,
The darkness to challange me,
For the darkness has never been felled,
Nor the light ever extinguished,
Even in death, the light will live on,
Glowing brighter and stronger,
In those final moments,
Till there’s no darkness at all,
I believe in the end,
There will only be the light,
But for now, both the light and the darkness,
Within me remain both foe and friend.

I always thought,
The darkness was meant to be defeated,
But no, it is only meant to be controlled,
And not in-control,
There’s some good in it,
As even the darkness, was the makings of God,
As when you light a candle,
The areas closest to it,
As those furthest,
Are too, often dark….

Thus it cannot be ignored,
Darkness is not in itself bad,
It’s our deeds within that darkness,
Which sullies it,
Our deeds, our words, our thoughts,
That we spin in the dark,
Giving our sins to it,
Then hiding in light.

No, we cannot hide in the light,
Nor can we hide in the dark,
They are both kin,
The are both even one in kind,
They work together,
To show us the way…

If everywhere was also light,
We would get lost in it,
As if everywhere is dark,
We are lost.

It’s the kinship in both,
That show us the way,
The light THROUGH the dark.

So that I am,
Both my light and my darkness,
As I hold on to that light,
I allow the darkness to challange me,
In the end,
With the final breath to sleep…
There will only be light,
And in it, I’ll be set free.

The End
Sky Lark Crow
4.15pm 19th April 2006

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Just a thought that was playing in my head really.

Don’t they always say that we appreciate our moments of happiness far more, only because we’ve experienced sorrow? it’s one and the same therein.

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I’m in Brisbane right now, at the University lab actually. I was supposed to get this slip for my passport, but it just so happens that the office closes today at 1.30pm so I was about 2hours late on that. So I have to come back again next week to get the tab in.

Which in a way is good. I have to come back here anyhow to pick up my camera from my friend. Coz I was in Sydney for almost a week, and on the night before I returned, I left my camera in my friends car and another friend’s gonna get his brother to bring it back for me coz his brother is living in Brisbane right now. i think the dude’s returning to Brisbane next Tuesday, so I’ll see about coming back here perhaps on Tuesday and going back to Toowoomba on Wednesday. The more trips I make here, I suppose will be good so that I finish up the 10trip pass which I just bought today thinking that the last trip will be in November when I return to Malaysia, but it runs out in October, so anyway I’ll still have one more trip to make. Right now for sure I know I’ll be making at least 6 trips down here, that is if my friend comes to Brisbane…. I hope that he does even though things are shakey between us. But I don’t know. I told him that I hope he comes, he knows that I want him to…. But it’s on his tab, so he’ll have to decide and I just have to let it be.

Anyway, Sydney was great. A lot of good stuff went on there with my dad’s programme so he was extremely happy. I got to meet up with my pals as well, but not for very long though. Just a few hours each, coz on the weekend I was with dad and his plans didn’t allow for me to meet up with my mates in the end. So I should try and make another trip down there to see em if I can. It’ll be fun fer sure though. 🙂

Ah well, I think I should make my way back to the transit station coz i got to catch a bus back to Toowoomba at 5.30pm, and that’s an hour from now. And I need to get the train to the transit station too. I need a drink.

I’m trying to get along without feeling a lack. I hate voids in my life. It sometimes makes me do the darnest things. Voids are my weakness I guess. I don’t often let it come to me, but times like this…. It’s between the hurt and void, two things which seem to be a lose-lose situation for me. Hurt or Void, which do you want? Which would you think more appealing? Void I suppose, it gets filled in the end doesn’t it? Hurt just lingers…

*sigh* I should just be happy that i can breath.

Take care and be well everyone!

God bless

Sincerely,
Lingering between the Void and Hurt