writing again

Its been 8 months, and I’m back to writing in on this again.  Life doesn’t change much over the months, I hope who ever reads this has been doing good.

I am not writing to complain, just angry with myself for not losing weight over the past months. Yes I made my choices, and they were poor ones. ah food , now there is an addiction .   my doctor says my thryoid is way out of wack (again) it bounces from one end to the other like a ticking clock.  wish it would stablize, I think it was stable when I was able to lose the 20 lbs. but gained 10 back.  its not the thyroid so much as the food!   I keep trying to eat less, yeah yeah, heard that one about a million times, eat less exercise more. blah blah blah.  I know that.  just like the alcohol takes one more drink, and one more.   so writing here is note to myself. to get tougher, eat less. change something!   

in a monht, in april, my sister who is 2 years older then me, is coming to colorado to visit. we will spend a week with DAD in Grand Junction.  she has lost 60 lbs over past year on weight watchers.  down to 145!  nice.  grats. but oh my god am I going to hear about it from dad and her for a solid week.  not looking forward to that.  so the push is on, at least need to start losing weight again!  

on the brighter side, I have been more active in past year then in recent years.  I go out to see the horses several times a week, and now that the weather is unusally nice (70’s in March!)  I have gone for several rides with my daughter and others at the barn.  the little sorrel mare and I are teamed up.   I just find it hard during weekend to get enough time to do housework.  and now I have to add in yard work.   the grass is growing and I have to plug in the electric mower to see if it still works. 

and I have to paint the spare room before my sister comes, she’ll be here a few days. as she as a grand daughter intown that she will visit and her daughter from whyoming will be down to see her. 

so much to do and no energy to do it in.  oh yes i’m back on depression meds again– since october.  gives me the energy to got to work and deal with everything there.  which by the by I have to do now. 

talking to myself later !