206. true colors

for those of you fine bookmarks out there. if you play scramble with friends. i will murk all of you =] start a game with me.. lmfrbayybee =]

last night was wellzys birthday (scottys brother). i figured i wasn’t invited. since ive been seeing scotty every day i just assumed all of the guys would go and do their guy shit and get fucked up. no one likes a vag crampin their style.

then scotty called me from wellzys phone. he told me he was at jrs. so i was on my way up. which kind of sucked because i had matt (who is 20) with me and told him i was taking him to the drive in to get drunk.. that didnt happen.

i felt so shitty but he was like its okay its okay. blah blah. whatever. =/ so i promised him we will go sunday.

im like a mile away from the bar and wellzy calls me saying that theyre moving to alberts and mane and scotty are already up there and that wellzy is picking up corey and jimmy.

so i turned around and head to alberts.. after i walked in scotty was walking towards me hugged me tight kissed my face and told me where mane was sitting. the ugly bitch waitress brought me a beer and said three dollars. scotty gave her five bucks. =]

then corey jimmy two more guys and wellzy got there.. wellzy kissed me i wished him happy birthday. then corey kissed me.. then jimmy.. and yadda yadda. im the only girl once again. scotty made his seat next to me. and then this fugly ass bitch walks by right?

she recognizes scotty.. and he stands up and gives her a hug.. well she demanded one. he sits back down and gets me another beer. he doesnt like sitting down so much so he will stand and walk around.. three times that bitch was all over him. and he kept walking away from her.. i was talking to the guys and they were askin me if i was okay. and i was fine.. i was actually smiling when i seen him walk away from her.

this bitch was fucking DESPERATE.

then when i look over at him she was talking in his ear since it was so loud. and scottys got huge ass ears.. her mouth touched his ear.. she was kissing his cheek in shit.. wtfe..

so i get up tell the guys im goin out to smoke. i sit down by myself. im not angry.. im not fuming raging.. im just chill.. i texted matt what was happening. matt texted back saying i should lay down the law.

im not all over scotty like i used to be. im not chasin him. i let him roam around. i went outside though figuring scotty would notice i wasnt at the table. i see him walking out.. and he looks around outside. he cant find me.. so i call his name.

first thing he asks is if im getting upset over that girl. i told him no.. and he asked if im sure.. and the whole interrogation making sure im not pissed.. then he kisses me. he looked shocked. i asked him why would i be mad? and then he started telling me what she was saying to him..

“you look so good..” “im gonna call you tonight..” “after the bar lets fuck..”

and then i told him i thought it was funny when he walked away from her. he laughed and said yeah i havent seen her in like 12 years i never fucked her or anything..

he asked me again if i was pissed at him. i told him no and that if i was that girl id do the same thing because he does look so good. =] and then i told him she better watch her mouth tho.. and her hands.. because her hands were allllll over him.

he tells me “thats what i love about you baby” and kisses me. he goes back in the bar and i finish his cigarette.

scotty was trying to get one of the ugly bitches friends for mane. so when he went up to talk to the ugly girl and her huge friends she dragged scotty out of my vision.

wellzy seen my face and immediately asked if i was okay.. i looked at my watch.. she came back and he didnt until 3 or 4 minutes later.. he comes up kisses me again. mane apparently just doesnt care.. he doesnt want the ugly bitches friend.

then wellzy and scotty were gone.. and i looked around.. i see the ugly bitches friends.. but not her.. so then.. i get a little nervous and thoughts go through my head.

i walk outside and seen him and wellzy with the ugly desperate skank. they were the loudest people outside.. i sit far away but still on my radar.. they didnt notice i was outside.. until scotty skimmed and seen me.

then the skank whore went inside.. and it was just them.. as i was finishing my cigarette.. scotty was loud saying “im tryin to get her friend for mane..” and wellzy wanted some other ugly friend. i knew he was saying that loud because he knew i was out there listening to him. i walked up next to them and put my cigarette out.

wellzy was like “Linda.. you look like youre about to kill someone” i said no and i dont know why people think i look pissed. i told him i loved him again and happy birthday.. then i hear scotty.. “i think she loves me more tho” i bent over in front of scotty and picked my ass up on his dick..

he did not expect it. i shut him up real quick and walked back in the bar.. he was cheesin his whole way to his seat.

=]

the girl didnt STOP.. now shes sloppy drunk all over him.. and he started getting irritated.. he rounded everyone up and we killed wellzys birthday drinks.

i seen mike walk in. little did i know his wife (which he kept saying they were divorcing) was with him. i hugged him not realizing courtney was behind him.. he literally said ya hi then sat at the table behind us. he was pretty much fucking courtney on the god damn table dude.

i was like WOW. i told scotty that he was there. what a joke.

scotty wanted to go to jrs.. he asked me to follow him home to drop off the van. corey and mane were already in the van smoking a blunt. we hit it a few times then mane got in my car and corey stayed in the van. i pick them up and we went to jrs. it was fun.

kenny the dj was there.

scotty knows i fucked kenny. he knows damn near everything. apparently kenny was staring at him weird.. so he started getting angry. he forgot the blunt in the van.. so we were going back to get it after.

well. at the end of the night.. scotty and i were going to travel log. (our newest hotel) but we said were going to pick up the blunt in the van.

we drove all the way to the van and seen wellzys truck pull off.. mane stole the blunt.

scotty. is. pissed.

i have never seen him so angry. he was fucking screaming on the phone yelling at mane. and mane just fueled the fire and started screaming back.

these guys are best friends and scotty wanted to scrap.

then.. scotty tells me to pull over. i did. he gets out and says hes driving. so i slide over.. he drives to travel log.. i go in.. and the guy said i could have the room for free since its so late and that our favorite room hasnt been cleaned i didnt have to pay.

so i said sweet.. scotty is fucking screaming outside so bad after i got the key.. the manager told me to come back.. he said he was too loud and kicked me out.

i got back in the car and he was off the phone.. he asked what happened and i told him..

so we start heading toward the rodeway.

i told him we should try travel log again if he would just calm down. and he snapped at me with some smart ass response. it was fucking mean.

i didnt say anything.

then he said hes sorry he doesnt mean to take it out on me. he knows ive never seen him like this.. blah

blah.. im sorry blah blah.

we get back to travel log and i go up and try again.. i told him he calmed down and we were fine.. he took my id and we were in. i make the bed comfy for us and his phone acted up on him. so he was just full of rage.. i didnt know what to do so i layed down and turned the tv on.. he was pacing.. paranoid.. looking out the window. he was just so angry and apologetic at the same time. he was drunk. i was drunk..

he layed down next to me getting mad that there was nothing on tv. then we couldnt find the remote to turn it off.. i could hear his breathing get heavier like he was about to snap.

rikki kept blowing up his cellphone.. so he threw it against the wall and the battery fell out.

i turned off the tv after finding the remote and shut off all the lights..

i laid next to him.. i covered him up i took my hoodie off then he took his off.. i took my pants off and crawled in next to him..

his hands wrapped around me and he squeezed me so tight.. then i fell asleep.. when i woke up i rubbed his back and he kept rolling over.. tossing and turning.. i woke him up and sucked him off.. the phone rang right as he was getting off.. i felt better that i didnt have to swallow it.. i answered the phone and they said check out. i gave them the key and got my id.. i pulled the car around for him.. he got in the car.. i took him to the doctors and then took him home..

he told me hes sorry i couldnt get laid. i said it wasnt a big deal.

i feel weird now. he didnt scare me or anything. i just feel weird.. like i saw something he didnt want me to see.

i guess it all just piled up on him. one guy was an asshole to him. then he gets mad at the little things. this was all over a blunt he paid for. mane did some shady shit i agree. but i feel bad for scotty. he was so pissed. he was so happy at alberts until skank whore wouldnt let go of him. then it all fell on him at jrs. just driving back and forth in general was making him angry.

i felt like i failed him. even though he told me that there was nothing i couldve done. i tried to stay out of his way… i dont even remember exactly what he said to me that was so mean. all i know is that my face flushed after he said it. and he seen my blank stare about to turn to tears..

even though he wasnt mad at me at all.. makes me feel like we were just in a fight.. but we werent.

im taking him to a pistons game on tuesday.. i broke down and bought tickets.. i know i know. its for his birthday though. i wanted to surprise him but i told him like two hours after i bought them because i was just so excited to see his face.

so tuesday night hes all mine. and we will be front and center at the game.. im going to be all dressed up. its going to be fun. hopefully i will never see him that pissed off again.

-L