197. aftermath

so almost immediately after dumb bitch fucked up my car.. i got a new windsheild installed. $169. fuckin a bro.

ive been so irritated with everything.. on friday i got extremely wasted. like i didnt care about life anymore.. yesterday i was blown over. no sleep.. i puked in the shower.. oh it was bad. thank god adam gave me the day off.

i napped for a while. and scotty called me around 9pm and woke me up. i had a series of missed calls from scottys sister and scottys boss. scottys sister told me to not make any drug deals with scotty or scottys boss. then when scotty woke me up he asked me what was going on with his sister.. i told him everything.. retarded. another dumb hoe.

i told scotty how i was sick from friday.. and he told me he would get me high so i could go back to sleep. he came over around midnight and smoked a blunt with me. he bought a new phone so now we can get ahold of eachother and not deal with rikkis psycho ass.

when i sat in his van he was rolling a blunt. i didnt feel good at all.. and i asked him for a kiss. he smelled so good. we talked about my car.. that he would pay for it. i told him about what im doing to rikki. and he didnt even try to stop me.

he told me he screamed at her and she sat there and denied it like she didnt do anything. he told her she was caught on camera and shes going to jail. the stupid bitch STILL is putting on her facebook that theyre together.. after she just caught us fucking at a hotel room. and now he was at my house..

she was blowing up both of our phones again. how retarded. this bitch is delusional. everyone knows she fuckin did this shit.

after we smoked i hugged scotty and he told me to get some sleep. he kissed my forehead a lot.. he apologized for all the bullshit going on.. then i told him that the sex that night was pretty fuckin good before bitch fucked up my car.. thats been sitting in my mind.

ugh my emotions are so confused. he makes me so happy.. but like everyone wants to tear us down now.

BLAH!

-L