178. car

yesterday i did ALL of my laundry. yep. all of it.

ashley picked me up and we went to her moms which is directly one street over. all the kids were so happy to see me.. nevaeh was telling me how shes a princess and having a princess party for her birthday. scottys big brown eyes made me want to cry when she said that. ash told me everytime she sees vaeh she sees scotty.

i see scottys face up close all the time. heartbreaking.

scotty called me throughout the day saying he was planning to see me later.. by the time he called he asked me if i was at ashley and coreys when i said i was around the block. i said no and i was at trishas. he didnt really talk much. i told him i was leaving soon. and he said he was would meet me around here.

ashley took me home i borrowed some money from my mom and then i picked him up.

we drove around doing nothing. i through a bitch fit about the day before.. and he said he would fuck me in my car if i wanted. he did it was hot we almost got caught a few times.. we havent fucked in the front seat in so long.

after that i took him to jrs and drank my life away. he had a coke. we watched the red wings lose and then i took him back to his van. he kissed me a million times and then left.

i went back to the bar. and drank more.

i think scotty is missing a few things.. im not so pissed anymore. but im not happy. i even went through my phone looking for someone else to fuck. none of them sounded good. so i gave up. and chatted with th bartender.

i guess i just dont care if hes using me. idk. i keep doing it. i know im not going to stop. idk.

its lame. i dont even cum. but watching him get off makes me feel SO good. forsome stange reason.

thisfuckin keyboard is pissing me off. ugh

-L