169. this time wont you save me?
Baby I can feel myself givin up.
I keep thinking about my future with scotty…
I think of nothing.
Being far away hit me. The last time I was in florida was three years ago where my grandmothers husband died. When I came to the funeral I was only sleeping with scotty for two months. I specifically remember the first phone conversation with him when I arrived here.
He told me he wasn’t sure about having a girlfriend around but that he really liked me so far. He said he liked me a lot and hopes we continued to see what would happen between us.
And being here now thinking of that conversation makes me wonder of the next three years between us. I see no future. Absolutely nothing.
That’s probably a bad thing.
-L
the fact that you can’t see a future should be reason enough to move on. you deserve better than your relationship with scotty will ever be.
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RYN: GOD I am so fucking hooked on that show! Tate is unbelievably sexy (not to mention the fact that his personality has been inspired by Cobain).
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its definitely not a good thing… you deserve a future, girl, you really do. a happy one. i wish you could see it. i know you will. xx.
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*seeing* that lack of future is a GOOD thing, L. Maybe that will give you some perspective on the situation. Hope you’re enjoying the FL weather.
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Aw, i am sorry girl. I feel the same way with Danny. It’s frusterating and heartbreaking. But we deserve better. We deserve men who day dream about futures with us. Love you <3
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augh…its terrible loving someone you dont see a future with…thats how i feel when i look back on a lot of relationships i’ve had. sometimes the hurt you feel after leaving them is worth the happiness that follows.
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