146. dancin in the dark.

quick update. by the way.. im obsessed with my title. that song is fantastic. =]

my plans of what to do with scotty is using as much as i possibly can. ive been pissed over him lately.. but the more he treats me like this the more i know he doesn’t play stupid and knows im pissed off.

thanks to corey. after last entries episode.. i found out today that scotty was well aware of how angry i was without showing it. which means he was playing dumb asking whats wrong and trying to kiss me happy again. doesnt exactly work like that.

yesterday i forced myself to text him asking to borrow money.. even though i didnt need it. he came over last night and smoked a blunt with me. even though he knew i was pissed off at him the entire time. we didnt do much talking.. he got me off and then i went inside the house. yeah i decided to show him how that felt.

before i left to get out of the car he said "you’re not gonna hug me or nothing? no i love yous? no kiss?"

actually scotty i was looking for more reasons to be even more pissed off at you than i already am..

i didnt say that. but now i wish i did.

speaking of which that last entry episode resulted in my car getting a flat tire on wednesday. IN THE MIDDLE of a fucking rush at work. a rush that never slowed down. no one at my work offered to help except becky.. another girl.. i was pissed as hell.

a guy who worked at a car repair shop stopped and put it on for me. his name was scott. and he was a COMPLETE asshole to me. but he fixed my tire. it was confusing. if youre going to be a smartass dude then leave and let me do it.

he fixed it for me and left.. like he was a sexist or something. i felt like he was calling me a stupid bitch the entire time in his head. LOSER!

so that part of work sucked.. and i drove around in the middle of a fucking tornado watch on a damn donut delivering fucking pizza SOAKED completely drenched.

when i got back to work after it slowed down i was off at 9. and it was 930. my boss bitched all three drivers out for about 15 minutes.. then after the bitching he came up to me and told me not to be worried about the reaming out that it wasnt aimed at me.. and ben was pissing him off all day.

so yeah. great day on wednesday.

yesterday marisa had her baby! same day as my one year old neice kayli. quite ironic. so my aunt and i took my car in and my dad paid for a set of brand new tires. well fantastic. except everything cost 677. yeah. my jaw dropped. oh well. now money is fucking tight.

and i kinda got to exploding on scotty. rikki’s facebook is starting to drive me up the wall again. and she is still calling me on private its just picking up and hanging up thanks to that lovely little app. yeah i got some notes asking how that thing worked.. it blocks private calls and any number you want.. INCLUDING text messages.. the app just puts them into a folder that doesnt alert you you recieved them.. but you can read them anyway.. and read who had called you on your blacklist whenever you want. the app is a lefesaver.. i got an android.. and its called "call control" its absolutely FREE! check it out android users.

anyway.. im getting ready for work.. i better make some money.. or ill just borrow more.

but lately i wanted to let yall know im talking to a really hot guy.. and im still talking to clark.. and i still got scotty getting me off here and there trying to "make up" lost time.. yeah whatever. im done caring.. im done messing with ONLY him. back to single linda. i can fuck and do whatever the fuck i want. scotty hated this side of me.. time to bring it back.

after all ive done and that horrible wednesday brought me to tears. scotty needs to go. tired of this shit. and rikki. shit is dumb. she STILL calls me.

retarded.

love yaallll.. plus ive been reading all of you bookmarks! im catchin up on everyone finally! =]

-L