124. my delivery run.

so long story short the indiana trip was fun.. until we got back. scotty went to a different bar because it was too hot where i was at with cops. UGH. so i asked if i could see him after i took corey and dave home. corey and ashley were fighting REALLY bad. through texts.

her and i were arguing about scotty.

because there is a possibility that i could be pregnant since i have yet to wait for my period. she was going on and on about scotty.. how he wouldnt be there for me. in all honesty back then.. i dont think he would be there.. now.. im sure he would.

but i REALLY dont think i am. this isnt the first time my body has played some mind fucks to me. honestly i am 99% sure that i am not.

yesterday i delivered pizzas an hour extra too. i was pissed because i havent seen scotty in so long.. just down in the dumps the entire day.. then i got a run on scottys street. i texted him saying i had a run on his street and i was already on my way.. when i pulled on to his street i seen a chester mollester van pull in his driveway i knew it was him.. i slowed down as i passed his house and he was on the phone talking.. i delievered the order and pulled around coming back towards his house.. he hung up the phone and yelled “aww look at my working girl”

he stuck his head in my window and kissed me.. a lot a lot. he was telling me about rikki asking him who his new girlfriend was and what her name was.. he refused to tell her. thank god bro. he said “yeah i told rikki i got myself a new squeeze” i told him i was an old squeeze going on three years old. he told me whatever and to take my ass back to work.. i stuck both arms out at him telling him to come back.. he stuck his head back inside kissing me. he smelled so good. we talked about seeing each other when i got off work.. but he said he had the kids by then.

as i drove off i was so happy i got that 5 minutes. not even 5 minutes..

i fucking love my job. but still upset that i havent seen him longer than that.. UGH

i worked until 10 30 when i was supposed to get off at 9. sucked. so i went to the pub after i came home and showered. got wasted.. carlos drove my car home. what a sweet heart. everyone is so nice to me.

john was there too.. (scottys co worker) i walked on eggshells the entire time. trying to avoid talking about scotty. and then he asked me why do i love scotty.. and when i answered he told me were not going to be forever.

okay first off I dont even know if we will be together in the future. but i love him. he obviously gives a fuck about me.

im not saying that our relationship will last forever. i just dont get why he said that to me.. he kept saying scotty is a great father. no shit. i KNOW that.. then he said he loves rikki. but he doesnt know the status between them.. since she moved out just a few weeks ago. the guy DOES work in indiana. i was just fucking puzzled at this.

did i do something wrong here?