115. drinking days.

tonight im getting fucked up.

last night i got fucked up.

sunday i was drinking.

saturday.. not so much.

friday i was smashed.

babe never called me back =[

but its okay. im fine with that.

thank you to all my noters.. you guys are awesome

i do just need to BREATHE.

i guess im so overwhelmed from being so happy..

and then when im on that lower level of happiness

i sabotage it and freak the fuck out.

tonight im drinking with my best friends corey and ashley.

this will be grand.

i washed my bed and still doing laundry

room is getting clean.

fresh start. im better.

i feel better..

last night i cried my eyes out.

while i was drinking

and then when i got home

a friend jessica and i went to JRs

it was great catching up

then we picked up Chewy and went to Red’s

Chewys brother Shaggy shot himself last halloween he shot himself on the 29th.. and died on devils night.

we cheers to Shaggy.

then we went to Chewys house. where his mom lives

i mustve balled my eyes out talking to her

came home at 5am. my mom was just getting up.

she was pissed. so i cried more.

finally went to bed.

ran around all day.

now drinking again.. my system HAS to be clean for my drug test

i love you all. really you guys on this site. my bookmarks and my readers. i really dont know where i would be without you guys.

you all rock my socks off.

much love!

-L