episode 94.

i am pretty drunk. & high thanks to my best friends corey and ashley.

scotty is beautiful.. he called me and woke me up at 2pm

i brought him a blunt as he requested..

we watched american wedding with him his co workers corey and kyle.

he paid me for the weed

we smoked and then smoked a joint..

as we watched the movie we laughed..

scotty said the words "im not dancin at my wedding"

through out our relationship he always told me he probably wasnt going to get married

because "marriage" wasnt for him..

a few times i heard him say.. "id have to love my future wife for five years before we married" (2008)

or.. "the only way to get rid of my baby mama is to get married.. linda.. you wanna get married?" (2009) ((scotty and i were both intoxicated and playing euchre when he asked me this.. we were drinking captain.. but he did say those exact words.. when he said this to me.. i said "whats trump?" asking about the euchre game we were playing at the time.. he never mentioned it again.))

or.. "i probably will get married. just to put a smile on my mothers face before she goes.."

or.. "ill start lookin for marriage when im 30"

he just turned 27 in april. but these are the only comments i could never imagine scotty saying because he always told me throughout our relationship that he probably would never get married.. he has said this for so long.. but on those occasional slip ups.. i heard him say those words throughout the years we’ve fucked.. and just today.. as we watched american wedding.. they were all dancing in couples.. how scotty and i danced at our best friends wedding.. and he said outloud to his boys that we were smokin with.. "i dont want to dance at my wedding.. and after we marry.. im gonna fuck with her and say "can we get a divorce babe?""" he started laughing with the guys.. but his hand was in between my thigh squeezing it..

i melted.. but i really do TRY so hard.. not to convince myself this guy will propose to me in his cocky headed ‘im not jealous’ mind set.

but those slip ups.. through out 3 years.. have really got me thinking.. not going to lie

but overall.. he promised to call me soon. kissed me goodbye in front of his co workers.. and sent me on my way..

i was so happy driving home..

i went to brittanys pure romance party… got the catalouge scotty and i will go through that next hotel date..

after the party i went to the pub to watch the wings.

and omg.. SERIES TIED 3-3.. … i called game 7 when the wings were 0-3. i still called it..

i knew we’d have game 7.

i love you all! will pormise to update mine and scottys day tomorrow.

a little weird hes keeping up with me again..

i feel good. i got my hockey team.. which i might love more than scotty..

im loving life.. plus im buzzed.. after the pub corey and ashley smoked a blunt with me

i just got home.. had to announce this update..

and i also forgot.. in sandusky OH there is Cedar Point.. scotty has promised me he would take me there and go crazy with me.. google Cedar Point if youre wondering. i go every year. sometimes twice.. and the only reason scotty brought Cedar Point up is because im a genius and i wore a sweat shirt all day that said the Wicked Twister on it.. when he hugged me in front of corey.. (his co worker) he was talking about going a few times this year.. and corey said he would take the van because he also wanted to go this year.. scotty said look behind the van.. (which was my car) "thats what were takin to cedar point.. easy gas.. and i promised this girl i would take her" i melted.. he held me.. kissed me.. and told me to get home..

the cedar point talk and the american wedding movie.. conversation shit.. has got me stirring up inside..

tonight was good..

today was awesome..

this summer.. on top!

i love you all.. i keep blabbing. im ddruunk and high.. my apologies.

-L