For those of you who haven’t heard… :(

My brother-in-law killed himself on the 6th. He had been on medication he said he was taking but apparently had only taken one of and didn’t take any more after that even though he was supposed to. His father (John, Mary and Jimmy’s mom has been married twice – John and Mary from the first marriage, Jimmy from the second marriage)killed himself years ago, their mom is bipolar… John was giving away his guns (but apparently had kept a shotgun)and basically getting things in order. He went out to his mom and step-dad’s farm on the 5th and apparently was saying goodbye although they didn’t realize it at the time. His wife came and picked him up, which is why he didn’t do it there. Tami (his wife – who’s pregnant with their first child)was at a spa for the day and John was supposed to go out to lunch with his grandpa and aunt. He never showed up. They called Tami and they all went to the house and that’s where they found John. He apparently had gone into the shed in the backyard, wrapped a blanket around his head and shot himself. John’s mom and step-dad were on their way over there anyway because John had said he wanted to take Lupine (our dog who lives on the farm)for a walk, so they found out at pretty much the same time. They didn’t see him, thankfully. Apparently he’s being cremated because that’s pretty much all they can do. Tami can’t afford to stay in the house they owned so she’s putting it up for sale and is looking for something cheaper for her and the baby. The funeral is Thursday at 1 p.m. 🙁 He would have been 40 on January 25th.