my pain

Trying so hard

Can’t let you see my pain

This hurt that I harbor deep in my soul

Tears are not an option

Holding inside a flood of emotion

Staring into your unfeeling eyes

The brightest blue I’ve ever seen

Reflects back to me

What I can’t bear to see

You don’t care for me

You probably never did

I can sense my heart breaking

As my broken dreams shatter around me

Gazing back into your face

Not allowing a trace of sadness to come through

A mask of calm acceptance

Is all you will ever get from me

You wanted to hurt me

Tried to make me break down

As you twisted the knife farther into my spirit

It doesn’t matter that I sit alone in my room

Crying until my throat is too tight

Gasping for breath

And searching for a way to escape

It doesn’t matter that I can’t live without you

Can’t make it a day without thinking of you

Longing for a love that was never truly there

Just so that you never see the tears I shed

Or feel the grief that won’t let me be

I can live with a broken heart

I can live with shattered dreams

As long as you never know

How much you hurt me