fuck.

I don’t get this. Is it me? Is it him? Are all men like this? (no, because my father never was…)

Last week my mom was in town Monday night – Wednesday night. I spent a lot of time with her getting the house ready, shopping, etc. Then, starting Friday, Chris had an all-weekend event participating in the 48 hour film project, which is actually pretty cool. I was totally fine with this, and proud of him for taking an interest in it and wanting to be that active in a weekend.

Ok, so Monday night, he decides he’s feeling anti-social. I have to practically beg him just to come downstairs and watch tv with me. He said, “Is it ok if I just read down here?” Uhh, no. I know watching tv isn’t like a big activity or anything, but at least we converse during commercials, etc. If you’re reading, you might as well not even be here because when you’re reading, I don’t exist.

Last night was Tuesday. He has raids Tuesdays and Thursdays starting at 8. Which apparently means 6 because he has to get supplies for the raid. So I automatically lose out on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Tonight after work he was planning on going to a movie with the guys. I begrudgingly said ok fine, and he said they’d go right after work and he’d still be home relatively early. Well it’s 8:50pm, and he’s not home, and he hasn’t contacted me, and he’s not responding to the text I sent him 5 minutes ago. And tomorrow night is Thursday.

What the fuck? Am I really supposed to have to beg my husband to come home and spend time with me? Every so often when we’re home, I suggest activities we could go and do. But when he’s home, I cannot get him to go out of the house. Why, then, do other people have so much luck with this? Is it really possible that he hates spending time with me that much? Is it really possible that he just doesn’t GET that marriage involves spending time with the other person, regardless of the fact that you need alone time? Honestly, I am ridiculously understanding with his need of massive amounts of alone time. I really really am. But god damnit, it’s not an excuse for NOT spending time with me. It’s not. If you chose to spend the weekend with other people, and choose to spend your free time on Tuesdays and Thursdays playing WoW, you do not have the option of taking more alone time. You have the option of spending time with your wife.

Where the fuck are you?

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