aggravation…

I resent that. I resent that you’re calling me a person “in general who didnt pay for much themselves, instead they had other people chip in for them.” Yeah, maybe I’ve never held a job… maybe I’ve never in that respect really paid for anything with money that was mine in the literal sense. But at the age of 19, I really don’t think you can go and condemn me because of it. If I was 23 that might be another issue, but as I still live with my parents and still go to school, I don’t think you have much of a case.

Look, my mom actually forbade me to work during high school. School, she always said, was my job. And yes, I worked my butt off in school. Maybe not all the time, maybe not even for most of my school career, but trust me, I did plenty of work my junior and senior years, and I used plenty of time for band activities. And please, please do not start with me on the fact it was band, because that was my life in high school, and I’m proud of the hours I spent in various rehearsals for various groups on various instruments.

I’ve derailed.

I’m pretty sure my work in school paid off in the end, if not directly monetarily, then certainly for reasons that allowed me to go to Miami and that allowed me to be the recipient of at least some scholarships. Yeah, ok, so you’re not talking about simply earning money (which I did do through accompanying people), you’re talking about having to suffer and pay for things with money from a real job. Fine, ok… WHO CARES??? Why is it you “dont really have anything nice to say on the basis of people in general who didnt pay for much themselves, instead they had other people chip in for them?” Why? Why is that such a huge determination factor? Why are you so caught up in it?

And what other people chip in? My parents? Last time I checked that was normal… it’s not like I went begging to other people for money… either my parents gave me money or I used money from my own savings. I understand that you wanted to drop this, but I obviously needed to vent a little here. I’m sorry to drag it out, but it’s not about dragging it out with you… it’s about me writing this because I’m actually really upset right now.

Get over it. It doesn’t make us that different. It doesn’t make anyone that different. It’s just money.