an email to my sister

Hey Care!

God I miss you. It was one of the many things I realized today, after fighting with Mom (which rarely happens these days), going to Dani’s, and just wanting to move out completely. It was stupid too, so I won’t even get into the reason. We’re fine now, but it’s kind of a shocker or something when that type of thing happens. I just knew that I needed to leave… go to college… find a new home, surround myself with a new place and new people.

Yesterday I spent 12 hours with Top 25. That was actually nice… I’m learning to treasure those trips. It’s like escaping from reality for awhile, and I love the combo. I love the people in combo, I love the combo rules, I love performing… it’s fun, it’s good… it gets me out of here.

Today I spent 9 hours at Dani’s? Originally it was just supposed to be studying for physics and calculus, but Garett and I ended up spending the entire day there. We actually didn’t spend much time actually studying, because for the first 2 hours we just sat, talked, I shed a few tears, we shared depression, we cheered each other up, we bounced off the walls. And then Dani decided we were staying for a super bowl party that she just decided to have. So at around 4 (I got there at 11:30am, Goo got there at 12:15) we went shopping for food. By 5:30, JP was there, and by 6:15, Meera came as well. Dani’s parents were at a party across the street, so we all pigged out along with her two little sisters. I left at around 8:40.

As much as I hadn’t intended to do anything for Super Bowl, and as much as I should’ve come home sooner, I think it was good to get me out of the house. As it is, Dani’s is like a second home to ALL of us that study there. Lord, we’ve spent hours on end between physics and calculus. It was also nice that there were no adults around for the most part… just for the… atmosphere I guess?

Anyway, it turns out that everyone but me had a great time Friday night! Haha, so maybe it was just all psychological. I hope things are going well for you. Trust me, I understand the distancing thing. I was doing the same thing for a long time this year. It’s strange… I don’t like it, yet sometimes I do.

I love you!

Love,

Erin