YAC – continued

After the service was the traditional candlewalk to the pier. Everyone is given a candle, and they all receive flame from the same original flame… we then proceed through the streets of ******** to the pier, with adults lining the way with their own candles. And we sing… this song has always been incredibly special to me, and during the worship service I’d been crying anyway… here are the words which I sang Saturday night, among tears:

Lord prepare me
To be a sanctuary
Pure and holy
Tride and true
With Thanksgiving
I’ll be a living
Sanctuary
For you…

If you’ve never heard it before, I can only hope you will hear it sometime in your life. Perhaps it will touch you as it always touches me…

When we got to the pier, we all knelt down and prayed… and cried… (and swatted bugs, but that’s not the point). It’s incredible to see so many candles raised towards the sky… and a sky filled with so very many shining stars. After the walk, some of us lied down on a sidewalk in the middle of the park on the way home and just gazed at the stars. They were beautiful!

I’ve never understood how anyone could look at a sunset or look at the stars and not believe in God… the beauty is overwhelming… it’s all so amazing and incredible…

When we got back to the cottage, Candlerain joined us again for a midnight snack. Some of us were on the front porch, where Mr. R was playing guitar and singing, and Rev. G.S. was singing with him. Everyone was eating, and talking… just relaxing… just being at peace… being together. I forgot to tell you, after we received candles, we were also marked with a red dot of paint on our foreheads. It was a cross on our hands last year… and I’m not sure why they chose a red dot… perhaps to represent blood? But it just ended up looking like we were all Hindi… hmm.

I spent another hour or so (until 1:30) in Emily and Sloan’s room just talking before going to bed. *sigh* Another night on the floor, but it was ok. Sunday we had 2 worship services, more Candlerain, many more tears… and prayers… It was an incredible two days. Exactly what I needed, and do you know what? I am SO glad Andy was not there. I didn’t get what I needed last year because I was so focused on him… and then this year, at first I thought David was hot, right? Well he has a girlfriend, but was still being all flirty. But after awhile he moved on to Emily, because I was distancing myself as much as I could without being not friends with him. I am SO GLAD I did that… because, I don’t want that. And I would have been thinking about the wrong thing the entire time… Instead, I am right where I wanted to be after it was over… and with more friends. ::hugs:: to those people, even though they do not read.

And with that… I am being

~swept away listening to Candlerain~

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