so where will this end? it goes on and on

over and over… and over again… ~Lifehouse

Everything. Erin’s stupid Aaron. (uhh, not me and not my Aaron… Erihead Erin) Dustin’s absence from OD. Summer. Boyfriendlessness of Aims and I. And Meg. My stupid memories which do nothing but make me want. School. The search for a school. The facade with Ron. How can I completely disapprove of what he does to poor Kim and then still talk to him online? I even say harsh things and he passes them off as a joke. I feel so hypocritical. This non-active searching for a church. This wonder of when I’ll have a church. When I won’t have to dodge Gretchen’s questions because I’ll simply have the answer.

At any rate, this was not intended to be a depressing entry. Not at all. In fact, I just had the song in my head, and it made me type the lyrics into the entry title… after that I guess I figured I might as well write an entry that had something to do with its title. (psycho? of course… must you ask?)

I forgot to mention I just woke up. I probably forgot because I was too busy reading other diaries that by the time I started writing, I hadn’t just awakened. *shrugs*

I think I’m going to go get a shower and find something cute to wear. *I love my new summer clothes* I think Mom and I are taking a mini-trip to the beach today for some photography. *fyi – beach is only 10 minutes away, so it’s not really a trip at all*

Uhh, scratch that shower thang. My German boy has just imed me! Lol… oy… I don’t remember any German. (MEGGGGGGGGGG…….)

Have no fear… we’re speaking English anyway? Haha, it cracks me up… we intend to speak German, but there’s too much to say. This kid is great.

Oh my goodness… aww… my cousin Phil is so sweet! I sent him a prom pic to show my aunt, and he was like “you look so beautiful”… aww. He’s 12, I think… usually a little monster… but that was sweet.

Yes yes… German… wonderful… too bad we’re not speaking a word of it… more french than german… more english than anything. *laughs*

I’m being

~swept away in loveliness~

@~>~>-dreamergrrl

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