we need to get a place all our own

Wouldn’t that just exceed greatness? Just the saxy saxes? Or perhaps if we get a large enough mansion, we could have several wings. Then Meg could live with us too… perhaps with a little Chris and friends (or Scott with no friends :P) extension. And another wing for Garett and perhaps Ron (maybe he could be banned from our wings so he’d only be around when it’s convenient) and maybe Scott. Where was Scott? That just occurred to me. But back to our mansion… I can just see all of us in our huge kitchen screaming, “Where’s the whisk?” And we WOULD have a whisk, and a bread knife. Lol… but we might not know where they are. It would just be so cute… and so cozy… and wonderful. There would be no annoying drama sluts, or Jillians, or Kates. Just us.

I don’t know why I was so happy… but it felt like we were all TRULY sisters and the guys were TRULY our brothers… it was so wonderful. I didn’t mind having any of them around… we all sort of created together, were dorks (lol) together… bonded together. I loved it! (Did I mention Kim and I were twins?? AWW… yeah green t-shirts and old navy jean capris!) Aims, Emma, and Meg were adorable as always. I felt very plutonically satisfied with Goo and Ron’s company. It’s very… nice.

OH… and Dustin was on last night! Still not writing, and still not inclined to come online very much anymore… but that’s ok. I miss that kid. But he did make me realize how totally crazy I am. Regarding the Andy situation. He made a comment about the sideburns… and that’s exactly what I needed to hear. *cringes* You know it’s the wrong person when you hate even talking to another guy about it. And the sideburns… they just say it all. *hates writing this at the moment because I’m talking to him write now* Lust. As opposed to love. BAH to lust. I hate it. And I’m a complete hypocrite for that.

I really don’t want to go to photography tonight. What is that? I LOVE photography. But I really don’t want to go. I don’t know anyone, and I really don’t like some of those people… some of the adults are just crazy. They don’t know what they’re doing at all. We’re starting off as beginners, but they’re just being beyond retarded. “Uhh, where’s the aperture??” Where she said it was. And this other blond college guy – complete moron. He was practically arguing with my teacher (who my mother works with, and who also got some of her photography sent to New York – very awesome). Ahh, what a jerk. *rolls eyes* Plus I’m not really thrilled about this whole black and white thing. While yes I think it definately works for pictures of people or objects/still life, it doesn’t do at all for nature. And that’s really all I’m interested in. I hate people – why in the world would I want to use them in my photography? The thing I LOVE about pictures is the ability to capture all the COLORS of the nature… a sunset on a lake just can’t be seen with black and white. But I guess I’ll have to learn this way first. *sigh* Ahh well. I guess we’re learning how to develop our film tonight. I’m a little scared. There is a girl one year younger than me in our class, so that’s good. She seems nice, but a little private-schoolish. (and she DOES attend a majorly rich private school) But also a little immature for her age? One year younger, but seems to me like it’s 3 years. Crazy, no?

*shivers* It’s a little cold down here. Again.

I’m so not talking to Andy. No conversation whatsoever. Good. Well, not good. But still… good for my mental health.

I should start to get ready… wish me luck!

Happy birthday Kim and Ashley!! (but especially Kim, my sister, because today IS her birthday!)

I’m off to be

~swept away in the cloudless sky~

@~>~>-dreamergrrl

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