~a continuation of the previous entry~

continued… (ooh I know fancy title)

Next thing. I’m having inner conflict. About Andy. Of course. I could a)make it clear that we’re just friends and therefore alleviate any potential problems b)not make it clear one way or another and see what happens c)lean towards just having a heck of a lot of fun (which unfortunately my sister calls a fling of sorts – and yeah it would be). SOOOOO what do I do? I have my sister telling me to be careful and make it clear that nothing should be happening, since I know I don’t want to have an all-out relationship with the boy. Totally not my standards, though we have that, ya know, physical attraction bond thing. Then I have Meg saying, just have fun. And I have Aims not really saying either, but I think she’s leaning towards the just have fun too.

***newsflash*** This just in. Hidden Hurting Heart is alive! *sighs of relief from everywhere* Goodness boy, log on once in awhile!

Back to the Andy thing. WHAT DO I DO? This seems so petty. So very very petty. I know very well indeed what I should do. But then Meg pushed me the wrong way again. “There’s a new kind of world that’s taking over… It’s devils it’s got angels… sittin on my shoulder…” Right. Bah. *whines* Why can’t I have fun with no harm being done for two days and then go and date someone like, oh, I dunno… Scott? *whines again* But I know I can’t have both. Or can I? I mean, looking back at the history between Andy and I, I’d say that um, we’ve kind of had the almost relationship thing on and off for awhile now, but we always manage to get around it. Or at least he has… I never really have to worry about such things since I’m me and I don’t get dates or boyfriends or anything. *sigh* Until now?

*starves to death and dies, found keeled over the keyboard with an unfinished diary entry on the monitor*

If you don’t understand, I wouldn’t worry about it.

AHH! It has just been learned that Hidden Hurting Heart has contracted a strange form of the mono which is in an e-virus e-contagious form, often found to be carried by innocent OD-writing bystanders. I am believed to be this vicious carrier from Meg to HHH. Goodness. (Watch out all you other note leavers… Aims, Bren, Jake, Sean, Ari, Erin, Erin, Missy, Kim, Kim… you too could be infected with the e-mono-virus. Not as bad as e-bola, but still.

Perhaps I should stop before I get too corny. Too late? Ahh well… *giggles* It’s that machine, I tell you! I’m all shaky and typing really quickly as if I’m nervous or something. Ahh… or maybe it’s the starvation setting in. Perhaps both??? *ponders*

I’m being

~swept away in random giddiness

@~>~>-dreamergrrl

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