when procrastination loses its grasp

I think I’m on my way to becoming an un-Agamemnon-ic type of person! 😛 Yes, I did in fact go to the library today! And yes, I did in fact take some notes tonight! And, as incredible as it may or may not sound, I was done with my history by 6:30, and done with my chemistry by 7:30. What? Now, mind you, I must continue research and must have a thesis as well as an outline by next Wednesday… did I mention this Wednesday I’m leaving for that ever-so windy city, not to return until Sunday? Right… “righty-ho”. This means, when shall dreamergrrl do all this research? And pit everyday, what?

I’m very sorry for my… rather ENGLISH type of style here, and it may indeed sound better if you were to read with that accent in mind, but I just finished watching an English movie… and of course that’ll put anyone in the mood.

“Don’t go chasin waterfalls, please stick to the rivers and the lakes that you used to… I know that you’re gonna have it your way or nothing at all, but you’re moving too fast…” <– song #1 in my head

“All the women, who independent – throw your hands up at me! All the honeys, who makin money – throw your hands up at me!” “Girl I didn’t know you could get down like that. Charlie how your angels get down like that!” <– song #2 in my head

Ahh well… I have learned how to say yeah dawg in 3 languages now. Yeah dawg. Ja Hund. Ouais chien. Yeah I’m good, what can I say? Ja, ich bin gut, was kann ich sagen? Ouais, je suis bien, qu’est-ce que je puis dire? Ok, so I had un peu help with that French one… but I knew everything but how to spell the qu’est-ce and also the “puis” word. Ok? Ok.

Hmm, yeah… apparently “the group” (why do we even have to call it “the”??) is breaking up. I’m really sick of it. I wish we could all just stay friends. It seems like the only reason it’s “breaking up” is because we started calling it “the group” as if we could never be seperated. I think everyone’s retarded. Some want change, but they won’t let other change. Some are willing to change, but don’t know how. Some just won’t talk. Others don’t know how to talk. Some people have made mistakes. Others aren’t willing to forget or forgive. Some meant things as a joke. Others overreacted. And I’m somewhere in the middle? Where I can see each side, not willing to take sides, but wanted to take a side with my best friend. Others have pushed me to that side anyway… as well as hurt me a great deal. “crappy friends” Yeah that was flattering, wasn’t it? And most of all, I’m worried that my best friend is going to become someone she’s not because of it… or will become severely hurt by it. Or somehow our friendship will be affected by this petty thing called “the group” which I would still love to be a part of… the people of which I’d love to have the chance to continue being friends with.

Aims I love you. Kim, if you’re reading this, I love you too. In a way I hope you are reading this, since I’m slightly doubting you’re going to speak to any of us this week. It’s like what Ron said… he doesn’t want anyone to talk about it, and he knows you (Kim) don’t want anyone to talk to you about it, because he doesn’t want you getting hurt anymore. Well, fine. I can understand that halfway. But by doing that you/others/I may be hurting other people in the process. There has to be a common ground. Why can’t we talk? Maybe if people communicate, we won’t hurt Kim, we won’t hurt Aimee, we won’t hurt Emma, we won’t hurt Ron, we won’t hurt me… we’ll find a way to either stay friends or stop being friends, but it’ll be what everyone wants, or needs, or whatever you want to call it.

*sigh* I’m off to bed… and I’m

~swept away in miscommunication~

@~>~>-dreamergrrl

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