Ehh… Such is life

I went to bed Wednesday night feeling horrible. My stomach was killing, but I figured it might go away in the night. Well it did… in a manner of speaking. It left my stomach. From approximately midnight until 3 o’clock in the morning. Yuck. Yuck yuck yuck. *scrunches up nose*

So I woke up at midnight, threw up all over my bed *embarassed*, and proceeded to walk into my parents’ room to wake up my mom. My mom stayed up with me, and I repeated the process several more times (but not on my bed, thank God) for the next three hours before I was finally able to fall asleep for an extended period of time. So my mom and I stayed home yesterday.

Here I am again today, staying home, but it’s more to make sure I’m fully rested and not about to get sick again rather than because I’m still sick. My fever’s finally gone and I can eat. But here’s the sad part: I can’t go to Youth Jam. *frowns* I’d have to leave at 5pm and wouldn’t get back until Sunday at 2pm. Mom and I figured that might be way too much, so we called Kathy and told her the bad news. I’m not going to get to see Jared now! I don’t even get to tell him… Plus I don’t get to see Candlerain. Grrr… PLUS, Petey’s one of the people in charge at this shindig, so I was looking forward to spending at least a LITTLE time with him… no such luck.

Ok, so I don’t think you’ve ever heard of Jared? Jared’s a freshman, but should be a sophomore. (What is it with all my friends being too old for their grade?) But don’t get the idea that I like Jared, cause I don’t. He’s from RO – the camp where I met Andy. Yup, Andy, Jared, and I were all in the same mission group the first year, and Jared and I were in the same group again this year. I only see him once a year, as opposed to seeing Andy 4 times a year, so I was totally looking forward to seeing him a 2nd time this year. Ahh well, Emily will tell him why I’m not there I guess.

There is nothing on TV during the day. It’s really a shame and a disgrace to cable. (wow what an insightful comment that was) No one’s online either. (not that they would be…) Well I take that back, a few people are on, but most have away messages or are in college.

I had a dream about Phil the other night. “natural prowess”, lol. No, he actually said that in real life, I just thought to add it. But yeah, so do I still like him? Highly doubtful.

Ok, so I’m a moron too. I was sitting in band on Wednesday, and the tuba guy from Wind Ensemble (whom I believe to be a sophomore, not that that matters) looked over at me and smiled. But I, the idiot that I am, was unbelieving that it could be directed at me, and even if it were, I didn’t know what to do about it. So I just sort of ignored it. I thought about it, and I’m at the end of a row, right? So if it wasn’t directed towards me, it was to Shaun, and that couldn’t be. Then I felt really bad. I didn’t mean to totally blow him off! That would seem unbelievably stuck up or something. But I’m also trying to figure out why he would be smiling at me ANYWAY. Maybe it was Tif he was smiling at? But I don’t think so. Hmm…

I’m finally me. I say that every two months, I know. But I’m serious this time. I’m totally open with who I am, totally happy with who I am, and it’s great. Well, it wouldn’t hurt to be in shape (now look what you did Aims), and it wouldn’t hurt to have a boyfriend, and to know what I want to major in, and where to go to school… but other than that. lol. I want to make a list like “saxy” did… cause hers made me so happy! (Did I mention I talked to my evil twin online!) Haha!

~swept away~

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