Oh, for lack of a better thing

Here, on my nice loser-ish Saturday night, I sit here and write, once again, in my beloved diary. I really do love this thing, no matter how many times I’ll go for a week without writing or whatever.

Ok so I saw my pants at the PSATs this morning. No eye contact. No words exchanged. Nothing. I guess I should be thankful for a bonus in getting to see him… whatever. Then I decided that I wanted to go on a date tonight. But, yeah obviously I’m not on one… Oh well.

So this afternoon my parents went golfing while I stayed home and wandered around aimlessly in search of something to do. I’m so bored. Ok I went outside and painted me unusually long nails. (For me at least…) Then I decided that I wanted to do something with Andy tonight. Just out of the blue. Really badly… I just was like, ok we need to do something. But then I got to thinking, well how’s he going to get here? And plus there’s really nothing TO do… so I gave up on that idea.

Eventually my parents got home and I was practicing piano. To my dismay, the whole long nail thing just WASN’T working for practicing. Grr. So I stormed upstairs and *cut* my nails. Ok, so at least they still had the polish on them and looked pretty. I went back and sat down at the piano and practiced a little more. But I hate the feeling of nail polish on my fingers when I play… it not only weights my fingers down a little, and adds a little thickness to the nail, but it also feels… smushy or something. SOOOOOO I went BACK upstairs and used nail polish remover. It’s just sad. I hadn’t even had them pretty for 3 hours before I un-did it all.

Tonight Mom and I went for a ride to look at leaves. That was… fine. I mean, they were really pretty. After that we went to Old Navy, but I really was NOT in the mood to shop. I ended up getting a hat and gloves, (which I totally needed), as well as a v-neck sweater with a blouse thing that goes under it. It’s really cute.

Now I’m home… it’s 8:30 pm… on a Saturday night. I’m such a loser. I have the car, I have the keys, I have the license, I have the credit card for gas… nothing to do. So bored. All day. Is a date with Phil too much to ask? That’s all I want… really.

~wishing to be swept away in the hall current with Phil right behind me… all over again~

@~>~>-dreamergrrl

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