This CyberWorld is Freakin Me Out!

Ok, so I have major issues right now. (not again! not issues! *runs and hides*) I wrote most of it in my diary last night, so I what I write hear will be a combination of words from last night and words today.

There is a guy I talk to by the name of David. He’s a 23-year-old senior, and no, I wouldn’t normally IM someone that old. Actually, about a month ago I mistook him for someone on OD and IMed him. In any case, we’re very much alike and are always both online.

Last night, however, something rather strange happened. I was talking about the ~S~ problem, wanting advice because I do NOT want to hurt you Aims. (And I know we had this discussion today at lunch, but honestly, I’d much rather have you as a friend than him.) Anyway, he ended up saying this:
“isnt it sufficient to fall for men that are 7 years older than you or that live in missouri”
Wellllll… the Missouri part was obviously regarding Jake (oh and don’t go getting a big head from that – I was halfway thinking about just editing that out =P), but the first part rather confused me. The 7 years older than me part would be him. I didn’t fall for him ever, so what was he saying? Was he saying he thinks I like him? Or that he likes me? But just wait -it gets worse… or is this bad at all??

Later I *sigh*ed, so he started cyber-tickling me (nothing new) and informed me that I was to be tickled every time I sighed. I replied with
“*crosses arms and starts to pout*”
The next thing he said to me rendered me speechless:
“::kisses you:: you look sweet and adoreable wiht the pout… but you can and should stop now”
I just responded (mostly in a state of shock that a 23-year-old cyber kissed me or whatever):
“: ok that’s just going to make me pout more. i’m a very stubborn person”
He again responded:
“hahah ::gives you a huge hug:: god you’re so like me it’s giving me shivers.”
So that’s the basic portion of what I’m freaked out about.

For one, David is not even a year younger than Mr. V. Riiight. This is wierd in itself, but we treat each other as equals. Because he’s so much older I guess I never liked him as anything but a good friend. But now this…

Oh, I know this next part will seem shallow, but I’ve never even seen him. He’s seen my website – at least the parts that worked – but I have no one to picture behind the words. As in all dreams, I can picture all the events happening, except I can’t see any detail. I have no smile to know, no eyes to laugh with, no face to see. And I’m sure you’re all just thinking about what a moron I am – but this is, however scary it may be – how my mind works. Considering this is my diary, I think I’m entitled to write it.

Anyway, he’s not really even talking to me right now, and I just thought I’d let it out in the open. (I guess that’s to be taken literally since anyone in cyberspace could conceivably read this…) Oh, and just so none of you freak on me, I’m not planning on doing anything. I don’t really even like him as anything but a friend. It just confuses me when 23-year-olds say things like that to 16-year-olds. Oh well,

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