Things

I have such creative titles, don’t I? Well, I have no better title to name entries such as this which have no specific goal. I just simply begin typing – what comes out comes out. They’re just things.

Jaimie thinks I’m over reacting. Fine. Whatever. That doesn’t mean I didn’t cry. Andy hasn’t called yet… big surprise there. I don’t really expect him to, nor do I care anymore. I read a bible verse that made a lot of sense. Actually, it’s my favorite, so I should’ve known what it said already…

I went over to Jake’s diary today. No reason really… I mean, yeah, he’s not coming back until like August or something, I know he won’t be checking notes, I know he hasn’t written, but I just felt like going to it. Almost a force of habit. I re-read one of the entries. I’d already been crying because of Jaimie, and then I read the poem he wrote. So I cried even more because I love that poem so much, and miss talking to him. (I also haven’t looked at that smile in awhile… how adorable…)

Well the good news is everyone in my family is in a MUCH better mood today. Which is, well, good. This morning I drove myself and my mother to my jazz piano lesson. My first trip on the freeway of any real distance… it was ok I guess. The lesson went well. I’m actually really working on improvisation now, which is cool. I think my time is getting worse though… my family always tells me I have great time, but today I didn’t feel like I was getting into the groove well at all.

Somewhere in the middle of my lesson I got horribly dizzy. It lasted quite awhile, and I spent my afternoon lying down and staying online in order to not become dizzy again. Ickiness.

Well, it’s Saturday – my last free Saturday. I really want to do something tonight, but I probably won’t be allowed because of this entire dizzy thing. Grrr. Life isn’t fair is it? Lol. I’m so stupid for complaining about such petty things.

@~>~>-dreamergrrl