Feeling a little uncomfortable…

I went to a joint birthday/pool party today of two of my friends who just graduated. The one guy is always horny, and just is perverted in general, but I’ve sort of gotten used to dealing with him. The other girl, while she’s best friends with him, is a better friend of mine.

There were several people there I did not know, and some people there that while I knew their names, I didn’t really KNOW them… Others I knew well. This one guy named Ben is going to be a sophomore in college this fall. I knew his name from the time he spent this past fall with our marching band. He came to a lot of games since his girlfriend is still in the band. He did not, however, know my name until today. Omg… it was horrible. Have you ever had someone just sort of put their arms around you, or totally be perverted with you when you don’t really even know them? I can sort of handle friends doing this… not that it happens that much, and not that I even feel comfortable then… But when a complete stranger who is like 3 years older than you starts doing junk like that, it just really makes me uncomfortable.

There wasn’t a whole lot I could do, because a lot of the people there do that type of thing, and they just know how to react around it or whatever. But I hate being with people I don’t know… I should’ve like yelled at him or slapped him or something… (especially when he sat down on my lap and started just feeling my legs… at least I shaved) But I didn’t. I kind of acted like I didn’t care or whatever. Grrr… it was so icky. He’s not hot, he’s perpetually horny, and it was just really annoying.

I didn’t end up swimming. Eric, Jess, and I ended up just going to Eric’s house because we were sick of all the sick things that were happening there, plus we were bored. It was a lot more fun there anyway.

But, ehhh – that was not cool. *shivers* Cause then Ben was just like, you don’t like me do you. What am I supposed to say to that?? After awhile he just said, well I’m going to figure out what’s wrong. He was like, there’s something wrong. I said I’m always like that or whatever, which is true when people get all, um, physical or stupid or whatever… But it just really bothered me. At least go find someone hot to go bother. And if he wanted to feel someone’s fricking legs, at least go find someone who doesn’t have fat thighs… ICK. It just, ehh, yeah I don’t know.

I mean, I realize it’s not like rape or anything, but, it’s still a little bit an invasion of privacy. For instance, I chose to be that close to Andy… plus I KNEW Andy. But Ben is an adult… legally that is. And he’s, um, gross. It was just, I don’t know. I should’ve been assertive, but I’m so afraid sometimes. Like, I don’t know when it’s appropriate to be assertive. When I’m around people I know or at least hate or something, I can be assertive. I just hate it around people like that. I mean, as if I weren’t comfortable WITH it going on… I’d be less comfortable confronting them, as they were most likely just joking around. But even joking… maybe I should’ve done something. Ick.

I just kept thinking about how much I wanted to leave… I basically kept with Eric and Jess… then finally we all left together. Thank God they were there!

@~>~>-dreamergrrl