Melt Your Heart

Last night I felt like I was on the verge of a breakdown.  Just for a moment.  It passed quickly but I felt my face starting to flush and the tears welling up in my eyes so I went to the bathroom and just breathed for a second.  Let it pass.  And I was fine.  I think it was just one of those things – it was just a moment of feeling extremely overwhelmed.  Good thing it didn’t turn into anything more than a quick moment of uneasiness.

I recently got back from my first big work trip.  I was in Miami from 10/17 – 10/22, and then again from 10/24 – 10/28.  It was a great trip.  We were going live at a big hospital down there so I was down there to help with final implementation and training, etc.  I have been on the account team for almost a year now so it was nice to be able to see the software we develop actually in use.  I got to interact with many of the end-users and hear their feedback, which was extremely helpful.

All that being said, it was absolutely exhausting.  We (my coworker, the project manager at our partner company and I) were out the door at 7:00 every morning and at the hospital by 7:30.  We were at the hospital until around 5:00, would go to eat dinner somewhere (or order room service), and I would work until midnight or 1:00.  I was averaging about 4-5 hours of sleep a night.  By the time day 4 came around, I was ready to just go back to the hotel room and sleep.  And that is exactly what I did.

I had a hell of a time getting back to Austin because the weather in Atlanta was bad last week so our flight was delayed.  We ended up spending the night in Atlanta (sans bags because they were checked somewhere with another plane), and waking up early the next day to fly in.  Now I’m back for good until my next trip, which will probably be a short one to North Carolina.

It’s funny, it didn’t hit me until I got back that I had just spent almost two weeks on the east coast for work.  My dreams are starting to really be realized, and that’s pretty damn cool :-).

This weekend Trav and I went to a work thing Friday night, Saturday I worked during the day and we went to a Halloween party Saturday night.  Then Sunday I had a five-page paper due so I was doing that yesterday afternoon and evening.

And that’s when the emotional breakdown almost happened.  It was around 8:30, I was tired because I only got 4 hours of drunken sleep the night before, and I had just finished about 5 hours of schoolwork.  I was getting up so I could make dinner and all of a sudden it just hit me.  I was absolutely exhausted, and I had run myself ragged.  My emotions started to come up for a moment but like I said, they passed.

That’s why tonight, I bring no work home.  I bring no schoolwork home.  I go, play pool, drink beer, and hang out with my boyfriend.  I have to learn when to stop myself sometimes and just take a break, I think.

1 hour and 36 minutes to go… 🙂

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