Nightmares
I don’t want to sleep. I tried to nap today and had two nightmares. Woke myself up from the first one because I yelled out. Woke up from the second one suddenly.
Spent the rest of the evening watching indie movies. One of them was called Pizza and had Ethan Embry in it. I love him. He has that cute puppy dog look. In this movie he was a little edgier. But still had that cute I-want-to-pinch-his-cheeks look about him.
Anyway, I texted Trav earlier and told him to be careful driving because my first dream involved a pretty fucked up car wreck. I asked him to call when he got home. He was out with a girl he works with and her girlfriend. I hate that I was upset momentarily because I wasn’t out with him. Not jealous of the girls (they’re lesbians lol), just sad that I couldn’t be with him.
It’s that time of the month.
He called a little while ago. I missed it because my reception is shit. Go figure. I called back and told him about my dreams. He said he was fine and made it home okay.
We got off the phone and I cried. Just for a moment. Nothing big time. A few tears. I wiped them away, and that was that.
So weird. I don’t know why that happens sometimes. The random crying. I hate it.
I hate when I’m emotional. I hate that I hate when I’m emotional lol. I’m making tons of sense, right?
The good thing is when I’m in a mood like this I almost always feel better in the morning. A fresh start, every morning.
I’m rambling 🙂
Time for bed.
R